Mo, you're probably right about my assumptions being way off, but it sort of didn't matter. I mean I didn't care how he felt because acting my fantasy out involved playing his role in my mind. I could do it any way I wanted. I aligned it with my friends' perspectives because I thought those were so ...

Thanks for the quick response, Sam! I just read that whole article about casual sex. Wow, it's great how this site has so much info. I lucked out because it was a random search in despair last night. Some of those points were definitely talking about me! I didn't think to "research" hookin...

Help! This is my first post like this ever. I don't know who else to tell because I'm too embarrassed right now to talk with my friends who kinda caused this. Sorry, this is long & ramblie & prob TMA. tl;dr: My first hookup wasn't at all what I expected and I don't know how I feel about it n...