I have a therapist appointment in a few days so I’ll ask then and see what she says. The expectations are definitely coming from me and where I think I should be with my life right now. Also, I think a lot of it is coming out of grad school and “school life” in general, and moving to the working wor...

Hi- Quick background, I had pretty bad break with reality a couple months ago and am on an anti psychotic and anti depressant to deal with the symptoms. I’m also seeing a therapist to talk things out. The problem-I’m jealous of my 13 year old sister. I snap at her a lot, and we fight. I regularly ge...

So…turns out the hot guy amnesia I was talking about? This came at a time when school was stressful etc. End of story I behaved in a way which worried the people around me and landed me in the hospital very confused and threatening to self harm. I didn’t do anything but that’s not a good thing to do...

I should have specified that my teachers already know-they promised to keep us in separate groups, and not to seat us next to one another. They even said they wouldn’t refer to her by name when talking with me about my issues-which helped. I understand the awkwardness almost certainly won’t go away,...

Questions in final 2 paragraphs I agree that the heartbreak and messy emotions have value that’s true :) Yes-I meant emotionally turned on, and I actually did try to focus on pleasure more generally, taking beginner swing dance lessons and bubble baths, and exploring my favorite perfumes. It worked-...

Third paragraph is the question-thanks! That does make sense about the grief. I suppose if someone invented something that could cure a broken heart then life might be easier for everyone. :lol: It’s a process going through the emotions but I am feeling a whole lot better about everything now, more ...

Kindly requesting a response: :) So I’m reminiscing for like 2 hours a day-which is a good amount of time to go through the memories and still do normal life things like prepare for school, hang out with family etc. But it’s another question for the therapist I guess it’s that I’m mourning forgotten...

Don’t need a response here: So I’ve read the article and here’s my viewpoint...for now (also just remembered I did this back in freshman year of college) :lol: “I don’t really care about race, diet, different interests, etc. I don’t even care about porn use. (I feel like my family traditions are way...

Just to clarify-those 3 relationships were one after the other. My main problem was not my strict mom or cultural expectations-I kinda saw through those. My main issue was I could not mentally accept that I was basically dating my friends and/or found my guy friends very sexy and hot. The line after...

I agree with the grieving time could probably make time once a week, and should clarify that I am seeing a counselor with my parents-but split time, so about 50 min with me and final 10-15 min with my parents. The 4 year old relationships coming back aren’t the main concern for my parents, they were...

Kinda a rant So since I last posted, I failed my college semester because the relationship memories were too weird and distracted me. I also had memories of all the paranoia and confusion that made me go to therapy for the first time cause the school counselor wasn't enough, 4 years ago. Was there a...

What I want is closure with all but one guy. Because see, I’m already over them. The issue isn’t them. It’s the positive impact they had on me (telling me I could do whatever I wanted with whoever and not have to tell anyone if I didn’t want to), that I really could not handle because of parents and...

To answer your question directly, as I think I have but not sure: All of these high school guys conversed and stopped contact. There were other guys in college who either conversed or did not but they stopped contact. All the reasons boiling to down to: I forgot them. This makes them feel sad/confus...

So all my guy friends who are angry at me? All ex boyfriends 95% close close friends, some moved on in life, a few engaged now (happy for them),some concerned and broke off relationship because I was forgetting them. And I actually was forgetting them with a black wall. As soon as platonic/random du...

So this is part of a long and kinda complicated story filled with all of my friends from high school. Nothing really out of the ordinary happened, but everything happened because it was just a time in my life that was important just like college is still important. But the one sentence answer is all...

I've been trying to work my way out of family/school issues and thought it would be a good idea to revisit old friends from high school, (because to be honest, college sucked for lots of reasons and I wanted people that understood me from when I was little) This has been a fantastic idea 98% of the ...

Preface by saying memory is fine, and already taking this to professional counseling. Sorry for posting so much but all the journaling brings back weird stuff sometimes. I’m in college now and know how to deal with love for guys. In high school I did not know how to deal with it in a healthy way. En...

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Yeah I do have a journal and a bunch of really close friends to talk too. Thank you!

So I just had the weird discovery that I’ve been feeling weird about my identity for like 4 freaking YEARS now...and now I’m FINALLY confident and proud of my Indian heritage and able to be proud of relating to others. :o Gotta go back to middle school when I decided (as an Indian)-that I liked Boll...

Hi Urna, Everything you are saying does make sense. :) I relate to your story of your job-even though it’s different it’s a lot of the same feelings. I think the old bridges I’m burning now were separating me from who I really was and who I want to be. It does feel really freeing not to have to worr...

So I just came out of a really rough period in my life. People in my family got cancer (mom,aunt, cousins, uncle) during the COVID lockdown which lead to a lack of opportunities in healthcare aka my chosen career field (cause mom didn’t want COVID at home) had to deal with poor grades and extreme la...

Hi Val, Thanks for the response. Everything you said really resonated with me and you didn’t misinterpret anything! I have decided not to date anyone in my friend group yet. We’ve met up after a long time since everyone was busy with college and are just enjoying each other’s company as friends for ...

Hi Carly, ( super long post sorry about that) Well you’re definitely right about one thing-it’s so complicated. I’m taking my own sweet time thinking before I act though-I care too much about myself and my friends to not be sure about what I want first. As for why it’s the perfect situation, I think...

VENT POST I basically WAS NOT dating- full stop, in any capacity all throughout high school and before. This stance I think made me the girl to go to when the guys in my life were having relationship issues or just wanted a friend-because I would never try to get with them. I think our immediate fri...

What a nice thread! :) I just feel so fantastic! This whole month so far has been nothing but awesome things for me and good friends, good family, good vibes all around. I want to spread the love to all of you! If you’re feeling down, I hope tomorrow is a better day, if you are happy, I hope you sta...