Hello. Imma just call this boy Owen becos its close to his name but not identifiable Lilys name is also changed Owen came to my primary school around P5 (9-10 years old) and it was bad right off the bat. He bullied me about my weight for like a year straight which was one of the main contenders for ...

That does make sense, i think i might take a break from trying though cos im probanly putting too much pressure on myself. Thank you

Sorry lol is gmt like Uk time? If so i could do sunday

I have tried like clit stuff but i barely feel pleasure and when i do, i get a really, really sore stomach feeling and it makes me want to just curl into a ball until it passes, and when it does im never in the mood afterwards. Also, ive felt it once and befre i felt the stomach feeling, i was again...

This is in relation to one of my old posts about masturbation So a couple nights ago i managed to get a finger inside of me, it felt extremely unnatural. Like it was too small to get anything in, i could barely get one it and it didnt hurt, but it just felt wrong. I didnt feel anything like ur suppo...

Dont know if im comfortable, i live in a secluded ish place and it would be really quite easy to find me as me. Also dont want to risk my parents finding this if they look up our postcode or something

I checked out that link and nothing came up, i live on an island so i assume thats why

I dont want to go to school tomorrow so tiring

Man sorry for being a nuisance

i dont know my local youth centres but we have a disused little area i guess but its not used for help so I dont have the energy to look into the hearing stuff so i mean imma just like live with it lol Ive been out of my bed like 4 times today and ive felt like crap each time like Also, how would i ...

I do go to school yeah, though the referelsls theyve given me havent helped at all. I got referred to cahms for other stuff and also hearing things 2 years ago, it took me 1 year and a half to get an appointment and in the end they ruled out any chance i have of a mental illness and said i wasnt hea...

Thank you, though i dont trust hotline numbers because theyget the police on me, and my parents just give me into trouble
ill look at the other links but idk man
Thank you

i would love to try, but i just dont have the energy anymore. And the most things ive missed out on are phones and social media, which im forbidden to use until im 18 the only thing bringing me a little joy is this tablet i took ,but ironically im just feeling more empty because ive missed so much, ...

she basically just went through slideshows of how to act appropriatly online or gave me sheets to fill out. the other one just nodded and went mhmmmm whenever i mentioned an issue and defended my parents I wish i could have the energy to do the things that bring me joy, but nothing does anymore. I t...

im 16, and i only just turned it. i cant describe my emotions rigt now but im having difficulty accepting im no longer 12 or younger. I have responsibilities and trauma to deal with and i want to go back I really want to go back I know in the grand scheme of things, im quite young but im not feeling...

I looked at those links, and ive decide to tty go see my local gp on monday about my symtpoms now im 16, i only just turned it on the 15th so this is the first time ive been able to go without needing to notify my parents
ill try with the small happy things, thank you sam

thank you sam i will check those out :) its nice to not just hear "oh hhold on youll be okay" and stuff like that because sometimes you arent though the bit i am hesitant on is the "serious depression" because camhs did a full report on me and said there is no signs of any mental...

No shes not, she just avoids it i think and when i tried to tell her i couldnt finger myself she just went "thats normal lol" even when i told her it made me cry and almost vomit
My mums whole thing is instead of talking just ban it

For the grooming thing i mentioned in my other post, i was made to do therapy until i was fixed and i had also got a camhs (which SUCKS) therapist, they all just made me talk aboht stuff like that but talking never worked. Like i would talk about it and my problems would still be there. All talking ...

hello , im a 16 year old person and im sorry for thebadtyping, i am not used to tapping anymore i havetalked about some of my problems before here but thjs one is my biggest I feel so dramatic, but the title is true Everyday is a struggle to get through, and iamso tiredof people saying"wellyour...

Help doesnt really work anymore
I feel so dramatic

when i get in trouble ot anxious i dont feel anything anymore because its judt a common occurrence, lol
No ones ever told me it was bad but ive been forbidden to watch porn or anything sexual bc my mum just doesnt allow it and bans everything on and about it so idk if that has anythig todo with it

Ive tried asking my mum fora therapist agai but she just set me up with one i previously had but she didnt help me at all and my mum just said tough sh,t. Its just hard to process thr fact i was the one that got punished for somethingthatwasnt my fault but then again it just feels like jt was becaus...

I know, i just cant get over that it probably wasnt even a big deal and that he was just drunk and didnt even mean it and that it was probably my fault or some stuff like that .
Like it surely wasnt even enough to be sexual assault and it was just some dumb drunk mistake and i dhould just get over it

Im usually in that state of mind wheni try to, like i can be perfectly into it and wantig to do it but the second i start my body just stops being into it, like it just stops. Ive tried a load of things to try get myself into it but like nothig works. I can feel sexual attraction and all that but i ...

Thabk you, im just always so conflicted about it because im worried it really was a family thing. My dad told him off and he said he was embarrassed qnd sorry so i feel super bad becausehe probably didn't evem mean it. I dont get why he did it thouh. He is always looking at me weirdly and at my ches...