Hi and thank you so much, that's so kind of you <3 (Whenever I put in my username I remember how I first came here and you knew what it means, it was such a nice surprise :) ) I don't have anything new to talk about at the moment, I'm just tired from all the holiday and family stress. But thank you ...

I watched  The half of it (because I discovered it's possible to delete Netflix viewing history) and for me it was a really nice mix of lighthearted but touching, cute but not too romantic and funny but real. Than you so much for the lovely list! I can't even decide what to read first :D. Probably t...

Thanks! I in fact had a really nice day yesterday. Everyone else went away for the afternoon to visit my grandma in a hospital but I couldn't go because I have a little cold so I stayed at home to do the cooking and other stuff. But I managed a short walk and I felt safe enough to watch one queer fi...

Hi, Sadly there's no counselor ar our school right now and there won't be any time soon. Thank you for that recommendation, unfortunately all options I've seen so far are still way out of my budget (most countries are just expensive for us in comparison with our country). What I'd like the best woul...

Thank you, right now I can't see how it'd ever work out, especially when it comes to my parents and money. But if anyone wants to try searching for some options I'd really appreciate it! If it turns out to be impossible right now I will at least have some good resources to recommend to other people ...

Thank you So, I've realized that this "I'm sorry for everything, I'm never coming here again" whenever I feel little down but never actually proceeding to do that might stem not only from some need to create drama and get attention but also from the fact that I just can't see you as an ano...

If you were waiting to hear how the appointment went I'm sorry I didn't reply sooner. I wanted to wait till I at least somehow sort my thoughts and talk with my parents about what they want to do next etc. But neither has happened yet. Anways, it wasn't that bad, or at least I think so. It could hav...

Thank you! Well, the only person I can now think of who said something like that directly is my mum but probably all of the other relationships are too low-stakes for people to openly demand closeness or affection even if they'd deserve it. Anyway, tomorrow I have the appointment with the therapist ...

Well, she is just one of those who I have no real reason to dislike, who never hurt me or never meant to, but I still feel very uncomfortable around several of those people. And of course I'm not expressly mean or rude to those people so I'm not hurting them directly, but I myself know how terribly ...

Thank you for reminding me that, it is sometimes too easy to forget such things even if I know them and  you have told me them many times. Just yesterday I was saying to a friend something along these lines, that it is absolutely okay to not understand all of our feelings, there are tens of chemical...

Thank you! And sorry, I asked for advice and then didn't follow it. I realise he wouldn't have a hard time guessing who wrote the letter even if it was anonymous because there are only 10 people in his class and just three girls and I didn't want to risk that he would want revenge on someone else or...

Thank you, knowing how it might look like really helps to ease some worries! As for my future relationship with my parents, I guess you are right. It's just that I find it hard to imagine my future life with them still in it, I don't know how it would work and also don't know how might they react wh...

And thank you so much, Elise! I'm sorry I didn't your post at first. I didn't know about those boxes and it seems like a great way to solve the problem, I'm going to look more into that as soon as possible. It's a bit funny that someone from the other side of the world is helping me to find things i...

Thank you, it's great to hear from you again! I hope you have got some kind supprtive instructors in your "adulthood training" like I have in you! In a few weeks all details of study and admission process should be published and then I'll probably decide and enroll to two different univers...

Than you so much! It means so much to me that you took the time to find and put together all this information, it's super helpful and appreciated <3 I didn't even know many of those options existed. If I understand it right, I wouldn't be eligible for most student financial support as it is if often...

Thank you for the offer to help I realIy appreciate it. But I actually already have an email account they don't know about but I can't unfortunately use it it that particular situation with that teacher because we are obliged to use our school email accounts to communicate with school staff. Thank y...

The problem with both Zoom and email is that it couldn't be done without my parents knowing - they get notifications from my email to their computer. Maybe it could work if I was careful, but right now I'm too scared and paranoid to try anything. I have just had another, for me quite important, part...

The appointment is on the 14th next month so there's still quite some time, but I'm already unreasonably nervous anyway. Thank you, that sound like it might work (if I'm miraculously able to overcome the fear of talking with her and just getting into conflicts in general). But I'm not sure if she wi...

I hope it's okay if I add something too, if not, feel free to delete this. I'm probably coming to this from a completely different  perspective that other people. I can't even imagine how hard it must be to see the way things are for decades and see that despite so much work done and so many possibi...

Thank you for your answer! It didn't occur to me that her specialisation might be the reason my parents are sending me there, it definitely sounds plausible, but on the other hand she probably also was the only one available as she is my mum's friend and wouldn't have time for me otherwise. But no m...

Thank you for sharing your experience, I'm glad you got the help you needed. (Off topic - I saw in your profile that you have a guniea pig, that's so great, I have two of them! My friend used to joke that the best way to recognise good people is asking if they like guniea pigs :D ) As for what does ...

Thank you, that sounds like a really helpful approach! (Before I get to you question - I have probably touched on this a few times already, but I need an direct answer - I'm aware that the way I use this place isn't exactly what it was made and meant for, at least not primarily, all in terms of freq...

As for the situation I keep mentioning, there's practically nothing to talk about as I really don't remember anything and don't want to assume anything based on rumors and weird feelings. But I keep coming back to it in my thoughts again and again and it's getting a bit disturbing, so I wanted to as...

Thank you, it's always makes me feel better to know that there are people actually reading my thoughts, taking them seriously and always trying to help no matter how weird, repetitive or overcomplicated what I write here is! I'm forever grateful for that <3

Thank you, your advice really helped me in the moment! I don't know why it stressed me out so much, I should be grateful that some people care about me when they don't have to I guess (even though I suspect that in the case of those particular teachers it was more about my successes at some extracur...