Thank you! Even if I knew how I don't think there's much to talk about, its a bit complicated, it's been some time and I haven't even think about it until I heard some rumours but I still think that rumours is all they are. But I've learned my lesson and even if it's not true the terrible shame that...

Thank you! I have to learn to accept that some questions can be left unanswered, because other people and I myself will always ask more and more and even if I find some answers they might apply just to the one specific situation and trying to force other situations to fit it might make it just more ...

Thank you, it really does help! You're absolutely right. Reading your answer I realized that the problem is that I'm looking at it from other people's point of view. I'm trying to answer questions people would ask when trying to invalidate someone's sexual orientation not question I need to know how...

Thank you so much for the validation, advice and sharing your experience - I hope you're able to do all  the things you enjoy soon! That's a great idea about trimming the hair at the back. My mum doesn't approve but I'm gonna try it anyway because it is starting to drive me crazy. Beside the discomf...

Hi and thank you! It's such a relief to be able to ask those kinds of questions and be met with understanding and reliable answers! (Btw, I got registered to a local public library and can use their computers and therefore have some unsupervised Internet time :), I have no idea why I haven't thought...

Sorry, I'll reply to your questions in depth later as I don't have much time right now, because my parents have suddenly started checking and controlling things like what I wear or do on the internet again (and it'll probably get even worse when they find out about some things from school). So I'll ...

Sorry for the negativity in those last posts, it was just combination of some things that happened and PMS that made me feel so low and act like that. I know I get like this every time but it still somehow catches me unprepared. As for the therapist I don't have much of a choice because I already ha...

Thank you so much for your validation and great ideas <3 I don't know why has it taken me three days to force myself to look again what I've written and read your reply, maybe it was shame or guilt, but as always your kind words showed me there's nothing to be afraid of. I'll start with your last su...

The quote is "Society is everything and society is nothing. Society is the most powerful concoction in the world and society has no existence whatsoever." (It's from Orlando, my favourite book by her out of those I've read so far, I love the style and it deals really interestingly with the...

Hi and thank you! There's no need to apologise (I know this thread is so long, chaotic and full of many different unrelated topics. I hope that if there's anything I could change regarding how I use this place, you won't hesitate to tell me, because I understand my use of the. boards isn't entirely ...

Hi, I hope it's okay if I add one small idea even though I don't have any personal experience with that, if it's not, I'm sorry in advance :) Its a bit off the original topic of this thread, but I think that in places like your work where you've already tried to come out so you know whether it is sa...

Thank you so much, your kind words really help easy some worries It makes a lot of sense that I'm not - in the true sense of the word - responsible for feelings and actions of others. You are probably right that there is no exact easy way to fulfill everyone's expectations of how people of certain g...

Thank you, it's really comforting to hear that someone who I trust thinks that despite everything you know about me. Maybe one day in a few years I'll come here to thank you once again and say that you were right and that you all helped me become a better and happier person 😊 My friend once thinks t...

Thank you so much, almost everytime I post here I feel bad that I shouldn't complain like this and that it's not like anyone cares anyway, but every time, you all melt my worries away with your kind words and thoughtful advice ❤ And I also really appreciate that you took the time to respond to all t...

Thank you and sorry for the late reply, I was completely out of energy the past few weeks. I believe there is a counsellor at our school but he is new and I've never met him and I just don't want any more attention or trouble. I solved the problem by not going to school when I feel the worst, my par...

Thank you for your answers, it's really helpful, I especially like the idea that some of those "voices" aren't my own and don't always have to reflect who I am. I wanted to come here only when I would have felt better and had some actual questions, but I hope some venting is okay... It's j...

Thank you But it's not easy to belive I'll ever meet "the right people", I don't even know what that means. Speaking just statistically - I have a big part of life behind me and I've met a lot of people, probably way more than most people my age (I've had a lot of hobbies and done many ext...

I'm not sure if getting closer is even possible if what he said about talking with me only because of the help he gets from me in school is true. But maybe it was partly because he was ashamed of being mine friend and didn't want to admit it among other people, but I don't think so. And at this poin...

Sorry for the late reply and confusion, it'd probably be easier if I used names for the people I talk about here, it's just feels too personal. (I think I have just mentioned him once over a chat when I asked how should I talk to him and support him regarding some mental health problems.) No I don't...

Sometimes I almost start to believe that I might not be a bad person at all, that I'm far from perfect but that doesn't mean I can't make other people happy and have nice relationships, I don't know much about them but I'm willing to learn. Sometimes I just almost believe I'm capable of doing that a...

Thank you, I really appreciate that, and you <3

Thank you for taking the time to check hownit works in my country. Problem is that two of my mum's friends are psychologist and I'm not sure how professional they would be in this regard. But I guess there's no point in being stressed about it when it's not even sure anyone will even take new patien...

Thank you for your kind words and thoughts. I hate the over-apologising myself. Some of you have advised me to learn to replace sorry with thank you and I think I'm getting used to it, but with her I still for some unreasonable reason always apologise for everything. Especially in instances like thi...

THANK YOU so much, just reading your kind and thoughtful words has made me feel much better, you are amazing ❤ I'm probably still not in the right mind set to think or talk sensibly about my friend. I'll try to sort my thoughts about it later, but what you're writing seems to make a lot of sense to ...

Well, I'm laughing at myself, I asked for an advice and then did something totallydifferent, sorry... Instead of what you suggested I texted her this "Sorry for being the way I am lately, I can't quite explain why I'm like this, mostly I don't know myself I don't know what to do or what to say,...