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by Estobawk
Fri Aug 11, 2023 9:13 pm
Forum: Gender
Topic: What brings you euphoria? A question for all!
Replies: 10
Views: 19838

Re: What brings you euphoria? A question for all!

Honestly nothing is more euphoric than enjoying an reveling in queerness and femininity with close friends / intimate partners to me
by Estobawk
Tue Jun 13, 2023 5:33 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Can't figure out what to call my sexuality / gender
Replies: 6
Views: 21828

Re: Can't figure out what to call my sexuality / gender

I think I would like some more input, yeah

I really like she/her pronouns and I don't want to not use them, I just feel like they're missing a little something
by Estobawk
Tue Jun 13, 2023 4:59 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Can't figure out what to call my sexuality / gender
Replies: 6
Views: 21828

Re: Can't figure out what to call my sexuality / gender

I don't really like the word woman, it just sounds off to me, so maybe something like 'enbygirl?' It still irks me a little bit because it feels like it would imply that I'm partly female and partly nonbinary, but I'm fully a girl. I think it's something I'd like to try, at least. On that note, I've...
by Estobawk
Mon Jun 12, 2023 7:31 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Can't figure out what to call my sexuality / gender
Replies: 6
Views: 21828

Can't figure out what to call my sexuality / gender

I'm trans mtf (been out for over half a year). I really love the idea of being a girl, I like she/her pronouns, and I can't wait to have a more feminine, female body. I can't help but feel like something is... missing from that identity though. I feel like I identify with nonbinary people too and so...
by Estobawk
Thu Jan 12, 2023 7:26 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: just want to talk about me being a trans girl
Replies: 21
Views: 16959

Re: just want to talk about me being a trans girl

My parents are supportive and I have a therapist who I see roughly once a month who I'm out to. My friends are amazing and extremely supportive as well, so I consider myself pretty lucky (especially for living in Utah) I think you described pretty well some of what I've been feeling. I feel uncomfor...
by Estobawk
Tue Jan 10, 2023 7:21 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: just want to talk about me being a trans girl
Replies: 21
Views: 16959

Re: just want to talk about me being a trans girl

I have a lot of, for lack of a better word, anxiety, around a lot of my friends. I struggle to talk to them a lot of the time because of it. I'm very anxious and nervous about hanging out or doing anything with them. And the reasons for that are so... big and huge in my mind that it's impossible to ...
by Estobawk
Tue Jan 10, 2023 5:40 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: just want to talk about me being a trans girl
Replies: 21
Views: 16959

Re: just want to talk about me being a trans girl

Sorry i have been busy with new years and back to school and kinda forgot about this for a while. I'm going to have my friends help me find some things i like to wear, but I'm not sure how to get things like bras or gaffs. I'm also curious about HRT. I don't really want to start that right away but ...
by Estobawk
Sun Jan 01, 2023 9:04 am
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: just want to talk about me being a trans girl
Replies: 21
Views: 16959

Re: just want to talk about me being a trans girl

I'm just not comfortable asking them, for example, "hey how can I buy a bra"
I really don't feel comfortable just being myself around them. Not because I'm afraid of how they'd react, mostly. I just am not.
by Estobawk
Sat Dec 31, 2022 8:23 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: just want to talk about me being a trans girl
Replies: 21
Views: 16959

Re: just want to talk about me being a trans girl

I just don't know how to get any of this stuff. And it's definitely not something I'd be comfortable asking parents about. I just get so frustrated when people are like "oh just get this" like how am I supposed to know how, especially when I don't have a job and money yet? Sorry not trying...
by Estobawk
Fri Dec 30, 2022 12:59 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: just want to talk about me being a trans girl
Replies: 21
Views: 16959

Re: just want to talk about me being a trans girl

Alright, can we talk about the practical stuff first?
I don't have much else to say right now. Can we go over some of those books, gaffs, bras and inserts?
by Estobawk
Thu Dec 29, 2022 10:30 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: just want to talk about me being a trans girl
Replies: 21
Views: 16959

Re: just want to talk about me being a trans girl

I've been trying to learn from my mom some things around the house, but I'm not sure how I feel about shopping for things with her. Shirts i can do, pants less so, body care stuff too. Not very comfortable doing that with my dad either. The thing is, i don't have a job and money yet, and i don't kno...
by Estobawk
Wed Dec 28, 2022 4:34 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: just want to talk about me being a trans girl
Replies: 21
Views: 16959

Re: just want to talk about me being a trans girl

I'm not sure how to use or get into the voice therapy, but it sounds really cool. I'm wondering how I could find some place like that for queer youth that I might like if that makes sense. For my hair, i haven't even thought about going online for a tutorial or styling guide or something. I have no ...
by Estobawk
Sat Dec 24, 2022 8:15 am
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: just want to talk about me being a trans girl
Replies: 21
Views: 16959

Re: just want to talk about me being a trans girl

No, I didn't really know about vocal therapy. How does it work? I feel pretty strongly about things like gender or wanting to be in a relationship for a week or two and then it just goes away and I'm left feeling empty. I think part of that is not really being able to spend time regularly with other...
by Estobawk
Thu Dec 22, 2022 2:20 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: just want to talk about me being a trans girl
Replies: 21
Views: 16959

Re: just want to talk about me being a trans girl

I really like the idea of being pretty, with a dress and long hair (and breasts). I want to have a pretty, girly smile, i just don't feel comfortable smiling with the face i have. Spending time and talking with my friends, (mostly girls and LGBTQ people) is really affirming for me. I really think ab...
by Estobawk
Wed Dec 21, 2022 7:16 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: just want to talk about me being a trans girl
Replies: 21
Views: 16959

just want to talk about me being a trans girl

So I've been seriously thinking about and talking about my gender identity for about a year now, but a couple months ago I decided to fully come out as being trans (boy to girl). I'm really lucky to be in a school with lots of LGBTQ+ people who have been really supportive and helping me figure this ...
by Estobawk
Tue Nov 01, 2022 7:26 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Trying to figure out my sexuality - what even is a relationship?
Replies: 5
Views: 6907

Re: Trying to figure out my sexuality - what even is a relationship?

Yeah, I definitely feel wanting to be "one of the girls." Becoming friends with someone, wanting to be better friends, closer to someone, finding someone emotionally attractive, wanting to fall in love with someone, the only difference is my choice. I want to talk about this, honestly, wit...
by Estobawk
Tue Nov 01, 2022 2:02 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Trying to figure out my sexuality - what even is a relationship?
Replies: 5
Views: 6907

Re: Trying to figure out my sexuality - what even is a relationship?

I do have a therapist, they just haven't had very consistent appointments lately. I keep stumbling over my words here because there's such a disparity between what I'm thinking, what I want to feel, and the actual emotions I have - that being pretty much none. I think my friendship with her and her ...
by Estobawk
Mon Oct 31, 2022 5:40 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Trying to figure out my sexuality - what even is a relationship?
Replies: 5
Views: 6907

Trying to figure out my sexuality - what even is a relationship?

I'm 15, AMAB but pretty sure I'm transfemme - I've recently been trying she / her / more feminine names. I find female bodies attractive. I find feminine people attractive. I find people I am emotionally close to attractive. Except, I've been dealing with depression, a near complete lack of feeling ...
by Estobawk
Sat Jul 23, 2022 5:33 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Fantasies about sex during summer (and friends next year)
Replies: 14
Views: 3997

Re: Fantasies about sex during summer (and friends next year)

I know this one has gone on for a bit. All of the discussion and time for me to think has helped me to figure out how to say what I've been meaning to. I want to have things that I enjoy doing or find interesting, and other things to do in general, like self-care. One of these things I already want ...
by Estobawk
Fri Jul 22, 2022 3:39 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Fantasies about sex during summer (and friends next year)
Replies: 14
Views: 3997

Re: Fantasies about sex during summer (and friends next year)

Both of Val's articles covered some ground I was already pretty familiar with. I feel like there's some miscommunication, my reference to looking through the website but not really knowing what to do was mainly about masturbation, though that article you linked seems pretty helpful. I'll probably br...
by Estobawk
Fri Jul 22, 2022 9:34 am
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Fantasies about sex during summer (and friends next year)
Replies: 14
Views: 3997

Re: Fantasies about sex during summer (and friends next year)

I think that what you said about masturbation makes a lot of sense, I think a lot of the time I'm not particularly excited about that itself. But occasionally, I feel like I am and I want to self-pleasure from that, and even then I don't feel much. I did try to keep a bit of a journal a while ago, b...
by Estobawk
Thu Jul 21, 2022 9:14 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Fantasies about sex during summer (and friends next year)
Replies: 14
Views: 3997

Re: Fantasies about sex during summer (and friends next year)

I have been pretty surprised honestly, because when I have been talking to people I've found that things seem to come strangely naturally to me despite my almost complete lack of having social interaction for several years (thank you sped). I like talking to people quite a bit. My worries are there ...
by Estobawk
Thu Jul 21, 2022 10:05 am
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Fantasies about sex during summer (and friends next year)
Replies: 14
Views: 3997

Re: Fantasies about sex during summer (and friends next year)

I do have a therapist, but he's been on paternity leave most of the summer. He's a very good therapist though and I think I have some appointments coming up with him. I'll probably bring up some self-care stuff with him. Sometimes it's gotten a little distracting. I've had a couple of weeklong class...
by Estobawk
Wed Jul 20, 2022 5:22 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Fantasies about sex during summer (and friends next year)
Replies: 14
Views: 3997

Re: Fantasies about sex during summer (and friends next year)

I have talked to my dad/stepmom several times, but it seems I don't really know how to make a commitment to help myself and stuff, and they don't really know what they might be doing wrong or how else to help me, so both parties are kinda frustrated. I like a lot of those self-care ideas, but I real...
by Estobawk
Wed Jul 20, 2022 10:01 am
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Fantasies about sex during summer (and friends next year)
Replies: 14
Views: 3997

Re: Fantasies about sex during summer (and friends next year)

You mention physical activity, and while I was reading the article, it mentioned "self care," which is something I have been struggling with for a long time. It was better in the school year, but not great, but now in the summer I really don't take care of myself as much as I should. In fa...