Yes I'm sorry

I need help with masturbating it's so frustrating and I cry when nothing feels good to me I can't watch anything, I don't have a partner, no toys, a pillow doesn't feel like anything, fantasies don't seem pleasurable, clitoris stimulation feels good for a second and then I start shaking and I get ti...

I'm honestly just in my own world everyday and I wish I could explore the world and get out of this house