So, I’ve always had an interest in BDSM, since before I knew what it was. I remember when I was about 9/10 I used to look for torture scenes from movies on google, I think this was me trying to find BDSM content without having the right words to find it. I didn’t really like the scenes I watched, th...

Okay. I kind of really just want somebody else’s perspective on what happened. Like did I handle the situation correctly? Is there anything else I can do? And does this make me a bad person?

I’m 17 now, but a few years ago (when I was 15 I think) I said something really terrible and now I can’t stop feeling like I deserve to die. Basically, me and my little sister (both autistic) were fighting and I called her the r slur because she punched me in the back of the head. I knew it was a sl...

Hi. I realized this a long time ago, but some of what I said here wasn’t true because I wrote it in the midst of an OCD episode. (I’m not professionally diagnosed, but what I experience is consistent with OCD symptoms.) I actually wasn’t aware of literally anything that my dad did until after the fa...

So this is kind of a weird question, but does being into BDSM make me a bad person? When I was younger I used to watch a lot of porn and scenes in movies portraying pain and I was really interested in it. I used to masturbate to, like, torture and death scenes in movies/TV shows. I didn’t like the ...

Hi Sam W, I’m not sure why my mom is having trouble finding a therapist tbh. Money may have something to do with it, but I think it’s more so because there doesn’t seem to be a lot of therapists where we live. Or at least I think there isn’t. I was given some other options, but I don’t think they’d ...

Hi Latha, I’m sorry for waiting so long to reply, I wasn’t sure how to respond tbh. No, I haven’t really talked to anybody about that specifically, but I have tried to talk to people about my mental health in general. I’ve visited my school mental health counsellor a few times, but I didn’t feel com...

Yeah, that makes sense. To be fair, I don’t even think I was aroused by it tbh. I just assumed that because I’ve been aroused by other spanking related things and I masturbated to that scene, but I also have a habit of masturbating while watching random things out of pure boredom. So, I think I that...

I hope jumping in here just as another user and not a volunteer is kosher, but, assuming it is, may I add: I saw that you were worried that you might be a "psychopath" and that really resonated with me because that's a worry that I've had in my past too (it wasn't related to sexual stuff,...

Hi, I know this sounds weird. Anybody can reply if they want to, but please don’t judge me. I’m already embarrassed enough and this is genuinely difficult to type out. So, basically, I have a spanking kink and last year I found a couple scenes from Family Guy where Chris was being spanked. I found t...

Also, I just noticed that in my post it sounded like my dad was starving my grandma which isn’t true. I just meant he would buy himself food that was more expensive and tasted better btw.

Hi. So, as the title says, I don’t want to have a relationship with my father anymore and I’m feeling pretty conflicted and confused. Also, I’m not in any immediate danger, so please don’t call CPS or anything like that. For context, my dad is a bad person and I don’t want to associate myself with h...

I’ve struggled with unhealthy sexual habits in the past and I’m feeling really guilty and ashamed of them now. I started watching porn at a very young age (around 10) and I used porn compulsively for years. I think I developed a dependency of porn because after a while it became difficult for me to ...

Thanks for answering! I already stopped watching the scenes from movies because some of it was scary and disturbing to me, I only really masturbated to that stuff a few times when I was younger (9-13) and a few times last year when I discovered a new kink. I was mainly just exploring the internet. I...

So this is kind of a weird question, but does being into BDSM make me a bad person? When I was younger I used to watch a lot of porn and scenes in movies portraying pain and I was really interested in it. I used to masturbate to, like, torture and death scenes in movies/TV shows. I didn’t like the a...

So, I already posted a little about my (possible) COCSA experience and the answers were very helpful, but that was me asking whether what I did was abuse or not. Now, I’m kind of confused about if what happened to me was COCSA. Does it still count as sexual abuse if I consented? We were both the sam...

Update: I spoke to my mom about it and she helped me ask my brother about it. He said he doesn’t remember anything sexual between us and that he doesn’t feel like I violated him or anything like that.

Does this mean that it wasn’t abuse?

Also, if it turns out that I did abuse him or that he felt hurt by it, what am I supposed to do?

Or if it turns out I was abused or I felt hurt by it, what am I supposed to do?

This is the first place I’ve been able to talk about this. My parents have improved a lot since I was little, especially my mom, but every time I’ve tried to talk to her about it I’m too scared to. I’ve also spoken a little bit to a counsellor before, but I wasn’t really able to go into detail and e...

The girl who did that to me was the same age and size as me, but she seemed to know more than me about sexual stuff and about social relationships. And, I’ve never told anyone about it before. I’ve thought about everything that happened episodically since I was a pre-teen, I believe. That’s when I w...

I think it was out of genuine curiosity, but it’s difficult to remember what I was thinking at the time. I know I didn’t know what sex was until I was older. And I don’t remember anything explicitly sexual that we did, like we never engaged in an actual sexual act, but I don’t know if that automatic...

I don’t know. I still feel really confused about what happened. I don’t know if it was abuse or not. And I still feel really guilty and like I’m a terrible person.

Hello, I already posted this question on another forum, but I’m going to post it again on here because I think this is a more appropriate place for it. I’ve been thinking a lot about some things that happened when I was little and I’m not sure if it’s considered COCSA or just normal child behaviour....