I'll see if the article's ideas will work, and if not, then we could try and brainstorm for ideas. And I'll also check the different fandoms at the end, see if any fit my wants, and if there aren't any good ones, I can ask. I don't really have that many friends, and the majority of my social time is...

Maybe, but I do sometimes find it hard to focus because I'd rather just be daydreaming, which is the main thing that worries me.

So I spend a lot of time making up fanfiction in my head with my favorite characters. 4-6 hours, some days more. And I recently learned about maladaptive daydreaming. Which happens to have the majority of the symptoms fit my daydream things.
So uh idk.

Well, I like exploring queer media when I can , but sometimes it's risky. However, i love to read, and my parents can't check every book i read, since I go through 200 to 700 a year, so I do like the idea of further looking into that. As well as some TV shows, since I'm a big fan of three that do ha...

Sure, I can look at them. I'm kinda busy tonight, but sometime tomorrow or the day after I can read through them and message back what I think.

Yeah, I could take some suggestions on how to express myself, that would be helpful.

And sadly, I have no safe physical address to get it sent to, nor would I be able to wear it the majority of the time, because my parents would notice.

Oh, don't worry. I know they go through my device history, but I keep stuff like this on private browsing and then have various webpages open off of private browsing so that it looks like I spend my time looking at those. It's not the easiest system, but it works. I also had to set up a spare email ...

Yeah, that might be helpful.
Worth a shot, in the least.

My parents have been complaining about me dressing too far off of the feminine scale, which means I can't really try to branch out, it'd be too risky. And for the binder, though I do have places I could hide it so my parents don't find out, it wouldn't be easy to safely get one, and due to being hom...

I guess that kinda makes sense. I understand that it's normal, and doesn't cause problems, I just always end up feeling terrible afterwards. I guess the guilt might come from how quickly and hard my parents beat into me and my sisters that any form of sexual activity or sexual want was bad outside o...

I guess mostly just for how to feel more comfortable. Talking was helpful, I just wish I felt safe in who I am. Instead I know that if my parents ever found out that I sometimes feel genderless, I probably wouldn't have a place to stay, and that makes it risky for me to dress in the genderless way I...

No, not really. It's just a massive wave of guilt. I don't really know what causes it.

There has been no conversation, whenever I bring it up they just yell at me and tell me they know better as my parents. They're also VERY homo/transphobic, which makes me feel like bringing up my discomfort over my gender would be unsafe. Usually when I feel genderless, I kinda wanna look... More st...

Well, usually I get nauseous and feel guilty, and also tend o get really sad for no reason. Also sometimes angry. It feels suffocating. I don't really from a resting standpoint have strong opinions on masturbation. Most sexual activity feels weird to think about, and usually when I masturbate it's j...

Kinda late to respond, but as AFAB, I guess it's kinda like a thick pressure in my stomach, and building sensitivity, and then I go all shaky for a few minutes.

So I'm AFAB, and about 95% of the time, I feel feminine. But every once in a while I get hit with a major rush of feeling like I have no gender, which I don't mind, except for the fact that I look super feminine, have no access to any way to make my body look less feminine (binders or masculine clot...

I don't know.
most of the time I wish I could just make the urges go away, because I always feel so horrible afterwards, and it gets pretty overwhelming.
I try to ignore to urges, but I can't always control them, and I regret losing control every time.

So I masturbate at most twice a week, usually just in the week before my period starts. I don't like the way I feel after I do it though, and I'd like to stop. But at the same time, my libido gets super high over that one week, and going without is pretty hard. This makes me worried that I'm addicte...