Okay. Thank you so much. I'll stop.

Thanks! I'll read up on this!

I feel slightly more positive about this test. He never ejaculated in me, anywhere. I suppose precum could carry some of the virus.

That's true! Thank you! I must ask though, is HIV primarily carried through fluid?

I understand. It's super scary cause you've never done it before. I'm trying so hard to be calm. In a way, I wish I did this sooner instead of waiting a year, but I don't know, it didn't occur to me. Safer sex is always good. Always. I like being careful. For now, I wanna see what my test results wi...

Okay, thank you Heather. Sorry. I didn't mean it like that.

I just get super anxious, but about everything. I don't mean too though. I'll be better. Take deep breaths and all that.

I did the same thing when I once thought I was pregnant, but I'll just calm down...

Also, how do I do the text service?

Thanks! I'll look into that! My appointment will be tomorrow morning. I feel really nervous right now.

When I think about it, close to a week after sex, I had a sore throat that lasted for a week. Now I'm internally freaking out!

Thanks, Karyn! I'm keeping that in mind. Everything tells me HIV is a horrific, scary thing. It feels like once you have HIV, people won't want you...

I just texted someone and I'm calling today. They'll call around 4 to check so here we go!

Also, I keep reading stuff about HIV online and then freak out and tell myself I MUST have HIV. That's probably not good.

Yeah. My biggest hurtle will be to actually call and set up an appointment. I just spent a month not calling. Probably so. I take birth control regularly and for some reason, STIs haven't really been top priority on my mind. And I like sex. I don't want to vow off condom-less sex forever though. You...

Yeah, I think I can make it. There's a free clinic I'm going to call tomorrow (they're closed today) and make an appointment for this week. I do worry slightly about that mutiple partners issue. I don't think it could've heightened my risk for HIV too much but I did have a couple partners after, but...

I haven't been sexually active for close to 8 months, and my last time I had unprotected sex (anal and vaginal) with this guy I was in a relationship with. At the time I trusted him when he said he was clean, but when I look back at it, deep down, I worry. I've been tested for everything else and I'...