I'll do some of those

I haven't spoken about the not repeating my life thing. I'll think about it though.

What self care would you suggest?

okay so an update~ ive been to my local child advocacy center and did the police interview. i described the guy and his wife to a T and they showed me current pics of them and its SO fucking weird they have just gotten fatter and saggier and thats it. ive been to a few sessions after. had one today ...

My therapist said because I was a minor she HAD to report it. She reported it and a child service person came to my house and said that I would need to be questioned by the police if I want to press charges which fuck yeah I do.

I'm available to chat whenever

Idk. I don't know if RAINN helped and it's really just reality dumping on me from all this.

I'm just done

I told my therapist and she mad me tell my mom and she had to report it because I'm a minor and I feel like my life is falling apart but know one else knows. I go to school and everyone just sees my happy go luck front but inside I'm one bad look from falling apart. I've been going headaches at nigh...

I told one of my internet friends and it helped a little and I'm going to tell my rl friend Sunday so hopefully that goes well.

I went out the eat with my grandparents the other day and as we were leaving my grandma leaned over to me and said, "He's giving you the eye." Referring to a guy working there. I was totally confused and said what and she repeated her self and I said what again and she said that he was che...

Live chat is ALWAYS offline when I need to use it. When is it online????

Thank you. I felt such a catharsis last night talking with the RAINN person. It got really bad and I thought I might mass out from hyperventilating and my heart/ANS issues.

I live chatted with someone from RAINN and I'm calmed down now. It got really bad with flashbacks and hyperventilating so much I almost passed out. I think I could have gone to 'Nam and gotten less beat up than with my fucking babysitter

Please please someone be there right now. I realllllly need someone. I feel so alone and I'm crying and I'm so alone. My therapist started talking about my social anxiety and I didn't have the balls to interrupt her and I tried to through out a life line and said how I have zero to even a negative s...

I have the fan on and it makes sorta white noise. I have cats and they cuddle with me sometimes. That's nice.

I find it helpful to always have this huge red blanket. If I positively can't sleep then I take some Benadryl and it knocks me out pretty quick.

Yeah she is setting one up. Just knowing people are there for me has helped a lot. I have been sleeping better the past few days. Sleeping had been hard because he always had black bags over the windows in his room and I guess subconsciously I associate dark rooms with him and what happened. But it'...

I have to go through my mom but it's no problem because I have anxiety problems and that's mainly what I see my therapist for so she'll just think it's for that.

Yeah I think she's pretty good. I'm the type of person that puts everyone in front of myself and have never really thought about what's best for ME. I'll try and get my mom to schedule an appointment.

I have photographic memory and can remember most things in crystal clear video from the time I was about a year and a half old. I'm so glad my mind blocked out most of this but I still have dozens of videos in my head of it. I already have a therapist because I have several serious heart conditions,...

When I was 6 and younger (I don't know when it started) my male babysitter would abuse me. He would finger me and I remember trying to wear rompers and things to make it harder slash impossible for him to do it. I've never told anyone and I'm afraid if I do then they will look at me differently. Wha...