Of course it does

I was actually wondering what these strange feelings were. I know I'm not supposed to ask such questions on this board.

And these feelings are hard to figure out when my narcissistic mom constantly puts me through abuse ( which is another story for another board )

I've recently been seeing the student in my dreams at least 3 times. At least one of them had us becoming friends only to try being romantic to me despite me repeatedly pointing out to him that I'm a Gray Ace. The more recent dream felt too realistic. I was at school and it was another day as I had ...

I would prefer them to fade away, but then again it's never a bad thing to have a friend.

Hopefully, but at least since I'm off from school for the week due to snow I can cast aside most of my worries. However I still find myself sometimes having thoughts of spending time with him in a friendship way and it pretty much distracts from everything else.

At least these attacks are getting weaker

Sounds like a good tactic :D After some brooding of mine, I realized I might be dealing with my first squish, which happens to be an intense one. I sometimes find myself thinking about how the new student must be feeling lonely and how it kinda pains me to think that. However with panic as strong as...

One thing I do notice is that I also get attacks whenever his name gets said, for exactly the reason you might think. I might try to unlink them although my brain will make it hard.

I think I'd be interested in trying it. My fictional interests help in that it's usually the sort of stuff my mind obsessed over before this kid came into the picture. Even though I still do obsess over such things now most of my thoughts are filled with panic. The new student arrived sometime last ...

I usually let the attacks happen themselves although fictional things I like decrease the feeling a little bit.

I think the feelings evoke curiosity but at the same time they feel so unfamiliar.

I don't really fall in love with anyone ( with the exception of fictional characters ) but ever since this new kid arrived, I find my mind changed significantly after noticing at least two similarities he happened to share with my current fictional crush. I'm suddenly getting many panic attacks in a...

I decided to post an update on what's been going on, mostly because I've been feeling bad about leaving this forum unanswered on what seemed like a storybook ending. The therapist mentioned justifies my mom's actions and just keeps talking about religion which does nothing to solve any problems I've...

I ended up talking to the counselor and ended up getting neutral advice (Not sure I'm allowed to share) and plus everything is going back to normal, so I guess its time to end this overly-long thread. I really appreciate all the help the staff and users gave me.

Are you sure the therapist won't tell me that its dangerous? My mom says he will.

I didn't know how to answer them, I apologize, since I don't know the name of the dude I'll be seeing. Today my mom and sis were treating me like a little kid again and kept saying things like I was addicted and in denial about it, only children who've been sexually abused know sexual things, and th...

Today mom sent me yet another text telling me "Its Love Day" and it for me to send it to 20 other people including those I love. I only sent a question mark back but she never replied back....

Right now, mom was unsatisfied with two papers being late and took everything away. When I was being sad around her, she said I deserved it and even more .

Mom just texted me that the therapist is coming next wednesday instead of this week. I just really hope I see the therapist really soon, because I'm getting so tired of all the stress mom has caused me over the course of this thread. My dreams even point out how mom stops me from fufilling my "...

onight she also took away my Hexbugs that I secretly use to get it off with. Im not sure if shes going to return them to me tomorrow, though it seems a bit strange for her to suddenly do this. Earlier she gave me ice cream while I was playing TwoDots and her only explanation for doing so was that sh...

To be fair, he does treat me better than a lot of guys do and he does the best to solve any problem I have. In alot of chats, I even felt incredibly alive whilst talking. He may be lying, but I have no definite proof.

Usually I would just do my usual interests. Ive felt better after spending some time without him and after analyzing our relationship, I would like to make it up to him. Im not sure whether it would be the best thing to do after all I posted on this thread.

Mom said it was this week. Last week mom brought up me touching myself again in front of my sister and her friend whenever we mainly went inside a store. I felt a bit embarrassed by it, but never argued.

My mom has still been giving me white pills everyday, as i wait for the therapist meeting.

We had another chat and I sent him an article on Internet Predators. He even sent me a screenshot on him being on the page, I still heavily suspect he is lying even when he tried his best to console me and told me he cried while we argued the other day. Because of him, Ive been feeling greatly depre...