Sometimes it's just how someone touches me, or if someone is standing too close to me. Other times it's random words or phrases, and I'm going to start keeping track of them. Normally I just wait for the flashback feeling to go away and I might feel a little shakey afterward.

I'm feeling much better, thank you. My time on here has helped a lot, and my friend has been very supportive. Sometimes I'm scared because I get flashbacks of what happened, but I'm trying to push through it.

I have been reading and writing a lot because it is relaxing for me. I've also been doing a lot of running to clear my head. It's really difficult to eat, though I don't know why. I've mostly just been keeping to myself I guess.

Talking on here has been nice. I feel like my emotions are real and valid and that make sense me feel safer. The friend I opened up to has also been very supportive, but I did kind of feel like they thought it was my fault. It's really difficult to feel like it's not my fault.

I can't recall much from that night because I have to admit that neither of us were completely sober. I'm afraid to tell anyone else because of the stigma. And I'm only 15. It's really weird because I feel both safer when I talk about it, and also less safe like it becomes more real and I have to li...

About a week ago, I was sexually assaulted by a man I don't know. It could have turned to rape, but he stopped pretty quickly because he didn't want to get caught (it was at a party). It's extremely hard to talk about, and I've only told one person. I keep getting flashbacks and I often feel unsafe....