Yeah, I guess, it hurts less, but the pain hasnt vanished, sometimes i feel nostalgic. Like I said, i feel just stupid. I could have changed my attitude but I didnt, because I didnt make a second thought about it. Now it is just... A broken memory.

I just feel no one around could have been so naive and dumb like I was. I had anxiety and my own mind and behavior let me down. If I would have been more mature and rational, things could have been sweeter. Now it just a distant memory that haunts.

I didnt lose my complete virginity to her and during 5 months i was still dumb enough not to make an improvement from my part. :/

I guess so. Some days I feel okay, but some days Are just complete sadness.

It has been quite a long since we have broken up. In my head, it still bothers, because I feel lonely.

Still the same, that it happened.

Ohh man, I dont know, this is just ridicilous and nothing more. It is my own fault and that is it.

Mmm yeah...

Mostly, to learn from this and it wasnt because of sex that we broke up and dont blame yourself and etc.

Well, thank you very much for the help. I know, that this kind of thinking wont change the past or anything. But yeah, I have talked to a therapist and etc. And yes, I have felt stuck in my thoughts, that i am scared to let go. I am scared, because I fear, that these things could happen again and I ...

Yeah, I had very bad view and approach towards sex. I felt embarrassed and that i disappointed her. Hence from the big expectations. I saw sex as a something as mechanic, as a task that i had to perform good constantly or it had to be satisfying, instead of something where you can have fun and pleas...

I had it in compulsive mode to it. I feel like i was a porn addict who developed social anxiety over it and stuff. And it kind of started and fueled my behaviors to compulsive. Anyhow, sometimes I do Wonder If we broke up because of sex. And I feel it is my fault. I was a perfectionist towards sex. ...

Well yeah, hopefully, but i am definetly gonna lower my frequency, because getting that constant release, saps my sexual energy and then I have no interest towards sex and girls, lets say I am less motivated. I kind of had a addiction I am trying to get rid of. So yeah trying to lower it, to a healt...

Honestly, I feel like in a rut, because of it. Sometimes I think like I said, that we broke up because i couldnt handle. This kind of messed up my mind. I am obsessed of not watching porn or masturbating because I just feel guilty over it now. Because of the past and the relationship where I didnt m...

What to do with porn? I dont want to watch it but i still get urges.

Yes, I would like to know some more. But anyway thanks.

Personally, I feel it is my fault. My fault for having so immature and naive ideas and approaches about sex and had no realistic knowledge about it. I was inside my own bubble and having some huge expectations. All of those ideas and things have come from getting my knowledge from porn. And now I do...