Thanks. I just hope this helps as this is my last option before I move in 2 years. I hope I can do this. For some reason it feels different this time, compared to my other therapists in the past. May be I am starting to want to get better or maybe he was just that easy to talk to that it was like ta...

Hi. Thanks. Sure. I am nervous around guys, and nervous talking about the abuses and that kind of stuff. And the 2 guys I have talked to about it I have known them for years before opening up about it. I'm nervous talking about the abuse in general and since most of it had been sexual abuse it kind ...

Thank you so much. I wanted to let you all know I finally received an appointment fate with a psychologist. It's not till the 2nd week of August but I hope it will help. I am a little nervous as this will be my first male therapist. He did my intake and somehow I felt really comfortable with him. Bu...

That sounds amazing. Good job. Maybe one day that will happen for me. Thank you for understanding. I vaguely remember talking about good touch and bad touch. But I also remember having issues with it and not understanding how any of that could be good. Family knows about the trauma but they dont kno...

Thanks for understanding. I have tried stopping but only to find myself substituting it for other ways. I gave up and accepted it. Well done for giving it up...that is great. I think I get what your saying, but my mind is going in a direction of thinking if I would abuse someone. Which I don't think...

Sure, I'm open to suggestions. I don't want to say what I do to harm myself out of fear of someone else reading it. That sounds selfish, but that is how I learned some of the ways I harm myself now. And that was suppose to be a self help chart forum type thing. Sorry. I don't think they are really d...

Hi, thanks for understanding. I don't know if it's resources that I need. I kind of suck at giving up self harm. No matter what I try I tend to fail at it. But then again I guess doing it for the majority of my life hasn't helped either. Yes, I mean traumatic. Growing up I was taught no one can touc...

Hi, Thanks. It's stupid. I don't want to get hurt like I have in the past. And being raised the way I was, I was taught touch is bad. Which was and is confusing. I know I need therapy but it doesn't look like I will be getting it anytime soon. I don't trust the female gp due to her rude and inapprop...

Hi, I would go to the gp but they are males so I don't feel that comfortable telling them this stuff. I don't trust the female gp at all. So I guess waiting for the psychologist is it.

We can try talking here, but I feel so bad about posting here so much.

Hi, thanks. Still no therapist. I am on the wait list but knowing where I am I will be lucky to be seen by 2019.... but probably 2020, which I hope to have moved far away from this place by then. The suicide hotline in this area said I cannot contact them anymore. And the LGBT chat site didn't seem ...

Hi, they aren't great things and they all involve some sort of self harm.

I have tried writing or art, positive skills, but it usually ends up in some form of self harm.

Hi. Sorry to post so often about this. I just don't have anywhere else to go. Lately, I have had this overwhelming sense to be touched. I don't like it. I hate it really. I try to get rid of the feeling through various things, even masterbation. I hate it. I hate the way it makes me feel. I don't kn...

Very true.

Thanks

Thanks.
No putting into action, I don't think.

I think I kind of want to be wrong, but I also kind of want to be right. I'm confused. And stressed.

Stupid brain. Lol

Hi, yes that makes sense. I'm just struggling to accept the basic. And honestly I never though any of this would happen. And when it does it feels wrong, but I think maybe I kind of like in a way (not the wrong feeling the other stuff). I just don't want to be wrong on it and want to make sure I und...

It makes sense, but like most things I think I'm just thinking too much and doubting myself. I'm still struggling with my sexual orientation. I think I may be attracted to guys and girls. And I feel like maybe that's what is happening. Weird feeling in my stomach and things like that. It feels odd t...

I think so. I think I just dont want to accept what is happening to me.

Aren't there tons of types of attraction? Do they all feel this same way?

That makes sense. Thanks

Is there a feeling or signs of this happening?

Hi, I haven't been on here in a while. Anyways, I have been trying to work some stuff out and was talking to someone this past week and it confused me a little more. It's a stupid question but here it goes. How do you know if you are turned on? Is it the same thing as physical attraction? Does it ha...

Thank so much. Now to actually do it...

Hi,
I was thinking about putting the books in a file box or at work in my locked cabinet.

A plan sounds good. Now hopefully I will be able to stick to it.

Thanks

She won't go through my stuff, but since it is university accommodation there is no dresser (so no drawers) and no where to hide the books. She wont go through journals or anything like that but there is no place to tuck away books so they are out of sight. I just know I trigger easily and tend to t...

I am trying to find a new therapist, as I don't know when this one will be back. I have never brought it up because I have never thought about it. I guess I was kind of hoping it was like going to the doctor and them telling me I have "xyz" and this is the information on it... very cut and...

I tried contacting the LGBT+ organizations in my area. One said they are youth only and the other said they cannot help. I need help as it makes things much better. And although I had 2 really good therapists in the past, this was one topic that never came up. I have not done any reading on OCD as I...

Yes, I would say that is right