Not really, but my mom would probably be willing to do that. I'll talk to her about it.

I would definitely like to see a therapist, but I can’t find any in my area that say upfront that they’re LGBT positive. I wouldn’t feel comfort talking to a therapist I wasn’t sure was accepting.

Yes, my brain turning inwards is a good way of describing it. And so far, I haven't been successful in pulling myself out of it. But I wanted to thank all of you for your help, because I was able to masturbate to orgasm yesterday. A change in position was very effective in keeping my brain away from...

Yes, it is that I don’t feel like I have the brain energy. When I am reminded of homosexuality in any way, I get into this state where all I can think about is that I’m gay. It’s the same thing that happens when I masturbate, except at GSA the feelings being triggered are more neutral than negative.

A lot of my nerves just stem from high school drama I have with the people who might attend, but these concerns are exaggerated because I know I won't be able to handle social interactions as well when I'm thinking about LGBT issues.

Thanks for the book list!

There are a lot of people out at my school, so I do interact with other LGBT people. Mostly gay males, though. I think the gay straight alliance is starting up next month, so I should probably go to that. I'm just nervous about it. I do read some lesbian fiction, but not as often as I would like bec...

Yes, I don’t think this has to do with my OCD at all (although my mom does). I just feel less overdramatic when I struggle with OCD because it’s a diagnosed illness. Although you make a good point that homophobia is also just a really bad thing. Thanks.

Yes, I’m comfortable with my mom and I have briefly talked about this with her, and more in depth about the non-masturbation related internalized homophobia. She’s sympathetic. She just doesn’t really have advice, which is why I came here. Slightly off topic, but I also react very strongly to anyone...

Thanks for your suggestions! I’ll definitely try those.

I recently realized that I'm a lesbian, and I have a lot of internalized homophobia. I don't know why, because everyone in my life is pretty accepting. "Trigger" doesn't feel like an accurate word because I've never experienced trauma, but I don't know what to call this. When I first start...