Welp.. Correction: I'm now being treated.. in a way I don't like. Responses are short and emotionless. I now feel like i've fucked up greatly.

This is the second time this has happened, and the guilt isn't helping the panic go away. To start this off, i'm going to share I have been diagnosed with multiple anxiety disorders, so panic isn't unknown to me. They've been apart of my life for almost 13 years now so i've learned them pretty well!...

Yea you're right..
I tend to struggle knowing the difference between normal nerves and my anxiety disorder nerves since anxiety and nervousness are such a normal feeling to me. My typical response is "oh just push through it" since that's what I've always had to do.

So I've been talking to a guy the past few nights. He's apart of my friend group and I met him through the service dog community. A few nights ago I posted in a 18+ handler/spoonie group how I just want to get laid before the new year. He messaged me and we started talking. He's a fellow poly person...