Hi Heather Thanks for replying. I'm glad to read your post thank you. Honestly, I did not mean to disrespect anyone. I have a phone call march 2nd with my therapist. I can hardly talk anymore so this is difficult typing. I have to forget about the idea of ever going out with anyone. There is so much...

Been a while since I posted in here. I've basically given up on meeting anyone and on life in general. I'm in San Antonio now, dunno anyone, don't like it here and I guess I will get a job and work the rest of my days alone and in misery. That's what God wants for me. I will have to look away when I...

Hi Heather. Thanks for responding as always, no worries about my post getting lost in the shuffle. I'm glad to hear from you. Slowly I am learning that most people are not interested in abusing others. I'm happy to see you wrote that tho. I have two female friends now who have come from families ver...

So Snorkmaiden then you didn't judge or condemn him for his lack of sexual experience?
I come from an upbringing where judgement and condemnation was very severe. So maybe I'm overreacting to what people say.
I mean are people in general as harsh and painful as I think they are?

Hi Heather. Been a while since I posted. Thanks as always for your awesome advise. I have been reading a lot of books and some things have changed in my mind. Some things not. Who knows how far I have to go. I might be better than I think. It seems I can have a conversation with people better than I...

Hi Heather. Thanks for saying that. How were you able to relearn? To be honest I don't know what I need. I'm just tried of feeling all torn up. And I'm tired of being nervous and being afraid of being judged and criticized. I'm tired of being alone, condemned, and feeling worthless. Seems like such ...

Snorkmaiden I wanted to ask you, you said you were surprised that he did not have much sexual experience. Why were you surprised? And what was your reaction or what were you thinking when he told you that?

Snorkmaiden Thanks for replying. Ask a lot of questions about relationships, people, sex and interactions, that's good advise thanks. The info you told me about your current partner makes me feel more hopeful, thanks. What do you mean when you say 'That's all. Not a lot,is it?'. That's very cool you...

Hi Heather. I hope you had a good new years and everything is going great for you. No one has ever said to me I was a kinda hero to them, thank you, it meant a lot to me. Yea haha, it is very hard. After posting here, which I am very grateful for being able to do and to everyone who has responded, I...

Hi Casey, Hope you have a good new years eve and your new year is going good. Sorry for not replying so soon, been going through lots of things. Your post gave me a lot to think about, thanks. Yep self esteem is a big one, and I think that might be at the heart of it. Maybe self esteem is everything...

I just re read my post on nov 26th. I've changed a lot of the things I said then and feel very differently now. Thank you guys.

Hi Casey Thanks for replying.
Can you explain what you mean by monolith?
I'm going to have to think about the rest of your post before replying. Thank you tho.

Hi Heather. Hope you had a great Christmas too. And thanks. Yep it was hard to post that. Thank you for honoring that and thanks for replying as always. Sorry its taken me so long to post. Holidays and processing everything takes me some time, but thank you so much. You're right. Most of the women I...

Hi Keda, Thanks for replying again. Hope you had a great Christmas. I just want to say that being able to talk in this forum has been so helpful. Thank you, all of you. Not measuring up is what made me anxious and scared. Them finding out how little I know. Why I shouldn't want romance, growing up t...

Hi Heather. Thanks for replying as always. Hope you were able to do something fun over the week end. Sorry its taken me so long. Been processing a lot of things and its a very hard thing to do. Im very grateful to you for taking the time to talk to me. I can see yes that most people are decent and n...

Keda thanks for replying too. "People treating me badly aren't worth my time" That is something believe it or not I haven't much thought of until now. As I mentioned to Heather in above post, I have been seeing a child abuse trauma specialist for about a year. One thing she tells me is tha...

Heather thank you so much for replying. And such a long reply too. Thank you. I'm glad I finally decided to write about this crazy thing in my head. It's very hard to talk about and I'm glad I have someone to talk to. I have an appointment with a childhood trauma specialist this Tuesday been seeing ...

Hi Heather. Thanks again for replying. No I don't really want to kill myself. I get very frustrated and depressed and sometimes think there is no way out. So I talk about it. I did talk to a pastor yesterday and felt better. If suicide was what I really wanted I wouldn't be going to therapy which is...

Hi Heather thanks for replying. Suicide is not what I want. I want someone to understand me and not judge me. I have gotten beat up so badly physically/emotionally that it's hard for me to talk to people. I wish there was a group that could accept me without judgement. My zipcode is 95926. If there'...

to be honest I'm getting pretty close to giving up on life. Im sorry to say that.

I hope anyone can help. I dont really have anyone to talk to anymore who understand me.

Sam, thanks for replying. I have been in and out of therapy most of my life. I have seen 8 different counselors that I can remember. I am barely getting to the root of why I think the things I do. Even a few months ago I would not even dared to post anything like this about myself even on an anonymo...

You both have a happy thanksgiving

Hi thank you for this site. I have some problems and I hope anyone can help. These problems are really destroying me. I'm very depressed and about to give up on ever meeting anyone or going on any dates ever. I'm a guy who grew up fat, I've lost about 100 pounds 40 to go, shy and full of religious g...

Hi Breeze thanks for replying. And also Mo.
I will post this one the public part then.