I don’t know why I said that. I’m not gonna come back here. Thank you for your information and all your help you’ve all given me. I’m sorry I’m a waste of skin. Thank you for everything heather im so sorry

I’m still feeling like I want to have sex. I don’t care about ptsd triggers, I’ll just ignore them and I’ll fake an orgasm too

It does. He said he loves to do that, the guy I’m talking too.

Makes sense.

It’s the part that feels good right?

Yes let’s talk about making them likely please. Also, what safety bits? We use a condom if it goes there what else is there? The orgasm bit was upsetting

I just wanna be wanted. I wanna be close to someone. I wanna figure out what everyone talks about. I don’t really wanna have sex like insertive sex (please don’t use the p word it makes me feel disgusting) I want to be gone down on and I wanna make out and touch. I don’t know what I want really. I j...

I know you’re gonna tell me that I have trauma etc and probably tell me I should be really into the person before I have sex and I am attracted to the guy I’m talking too. I can’t find a girl who is attracted to me so I’m settling for a guy. I haven’t talked to my therapist about the trauma things I...

So off topic but I’m ready to have sex. I really want too. Like yesterday. Do you think it’s a bad idea to just meet someone online and have sex/sexual things happen (I’ll use a condom)

I fully intend on not talking about it. She’ll ask about it I’m sure but I’m going to avoid the topic big time because I don’t even understand how I feel so how am I gonna be able to talk about it. I trust her probably more then anyone.

Okay I told her she was cool about it and said we can talk more about it my next session

I think I’m gonna find a new therapist because I don’t want to tell her because what if she thinks I’m weird and creepy. I don’t want a new therapist so I think I’m just gonna stop going and block her number

Do I don’t need to find a new therapist?

And you’re so welcome I truly wish the best for you <3

I just feel like I mess everything up. Having a crush on my therapist really made me start to spiral again. I’m sorry you’re going through so much, you’ve helped me out so much I wish I could put you in a bubble so nothing could hurt you

I want to cry

I don’t know how I fuck everything up. Now I think I have a crush on my therapist. She’s so pretty, she understands me, her hugs are the best, she tells me nice things and like I feel like I wanna date her? I don’t think I do I think I might just have attachment issues but like some part of me think...

She was just being nice it’s totally okay!

To make a long story short, a random girl kissed me last night and I thought it was going to be a peck but she started to make out with me and I panicked and pulled away because wtf lol. I didn’t hate it but I didn’t love it. I liked it more then kissing a boy but it left me confused because I feel ...

No thank you. I’ll be okay, I’ll figure something out when my therapist thank you! I appreciate you. I hope you all stay safe tonight, happy almost new year <3

Thank you so much oh my gosh. No one sees how hard I’m working besides her and I feel like it’s not recognized how hard it is but thank you so much for saying that. No one ever tells me their proud of me and it’s the nicest thing anyone can say to me so thank you from the bottom of my heart. So it’s...

I went to therapy last night and I told her about my drinking problem it’s gotten really bad and yesterday I self harmed again and I told her and we were talking, I got about 20 mins in and I shut down completely. I didn’t make eye contact I just sat there looking at the ground or having my Face in ...

I don’t understand what you’re saying. I just don’t want to talk anymore. I’m at my breaking point and I just don’t wanna deal with this sexuality shit or anything anymore. I give up on figuring myself out, I am gonna keep taking my meds and going to therapy and maybe things will fall into place but...

[edited to remove an attack on yourself so I can engage with you. - H] I’m gonna block him and just delete the dating apps. I don’t wanna do anything with anyone so fuck it. I don’t care anymore I’ll be lonely the rest of my life

I’m just confused

I’m not even attracted to him. I just wanna do some things so I’m using him to do them since he wants to do them. He’s mentioned you know whating in me and I’m like absolutely not I don’t wanna be a mom lol. I want too I said I wanted too but I can’t do that it’s too big of a risk