Okay well that’s a lie. Thank you very much optimistic. I was trying hard to be someone I’m not. I am not gonna get into explaining everything because I don’t need to explain myself but I get me and I’m not a woman or a man. I’m me and I’m gonna dress androgynous and also femme because I like both! ...

Okay. I’m a straight woman. Got all that decided.

Thanks everyone

Also, top/bottom is just one of the things. I have a lot of others that I just don’t speak of. That’s just the one I said

It hurts me because I just am not comfortable with myself in any way. Yesterday I was told that I’m not a man and I need to be the best female I can be. I don’t know how to be female well, I’ve never felt fully female. How do even act femme? I don’t know. I just feel displaced I guess

Thank you so much Mo :) Another question I have that stemmed from something that you said, my kinks aren’t sexual. It’s things that I guess could get someone aroused but It’s not things I want in sex, do all kinks have to be sexual? Does that make sense? Also, yes it is causing me distress, I think ...

Hey! Thank you :) That’s all lovely information. I will take all of that into consideration. I want it for work and that’s how long I work for. I don’t think im gonna get one. I’m a girl and that’s just the sad facts. I think I’m just giving up on the whole gender exploration because all it does is ...

Has anyone here binded with a real binder? I’ve done it twice and it wasn’t with a binder and I ended up causing a lot of pain to myself. Sometimes I think about tying them down with bandages but that not safe either and it’ll hurt me too. So, anyone have any good recommendations on what brands? I a...

This might be stupid but, when my body is aroused does that mean I want it? Does that make sense? Thank you for all that. As far as the groups, I sometimes don’t feel ace and as far as the other one, kinks are weird and I don’t want to be in a place that makes me comfortable with them and makes me w...

Okay you guys can completely ignore this, I don’t mind. But I really just need to talk to someone who is like knowledgeable and won’t judge me. I hope this is okay to talk about here. So, this might be long and I thought I was over It but I’m not and ugh. Okay so I don’t know why I did this, but las...

I thought so!! A couple years ago I had to get a vaginal ultrasound and it hurt a lot and it made me bleed more then I was before and someone I told about the situation proceeded to laugh at me and said my cherry got popped I was and still am like?????? That’s not even a real thing. Idk it just kind...

Okay this might be a silly question but is virginity a social construct? I did some research and they all say nothing about you changes but I always was under the assumption it did change you somehow? But at the same time nothing happens right?

I’m trying my best and Thank you! <3

I’m okay. Work is draining me of everything I have but thankfully they set some safety things up which makes me feel a little better about my team and I’s health. Also they started giving us $2 more an hour last week which is pretty cool too. I have a lot of health issues and my body is just not han...

Yay so I was scheduled to work a mandatory 40 hours this week, weeks go from (sunday-saturday) at my job. I was freakkkiiinngggg out mentally because 5 days a week in this, 8 hour days just sends me in a spiral. I worked like 50 2 weeks ago and I wasn’t okay at all. I probably seem shitty because I ...

I got pretty drunk and slept well. I dreamt of the situation yesterday all night long. I’m still heartbroken. I don’t know why I fell in love with her but I did. I’m still struggling as to how I’m going to be okay without her. She was the person I leaned on to keep me strong. And yeah I did have a d...

So i can’t talk to anyone about this. But I was brought into the office because my store manager heard me make a comment about liking someone. Which led me into talking about Alison and I’m so upset and embarrassed and I had to sign a paper about sexual harassment and I can’t talk to alison anymore ...

That’s pretty much all I’m doing! Washing my hands often, Using hand sanitizer after I wash my hands lol, and honestly I’ve just been giving my shifts away so I don’t have to be there lol

Clean*** not close. I was frustrated fast typing haha oops

I’ve had an extremely good day and it’s been without Alison! I really can’t live without her, I’m so happy knowing that I’m okay without her. Anyways the reason I came on here again is to let you guys know that a kroger like 30 minutes away from me has 2 confirmed cases! The store is still open all ...

i did block her. i see her on sunday but by then things should be blown over. i’ve talked to the people at trevor and the 741741 people whatever they are called. half the time i end up feeling worse

okay i started writing something earlier today and then i got side tracked and i don’t think i finished? idk i’ve been up since like 4am going from one thing to another. so hopefully i didn’t say anything because i’m gonna write it again. i have used those resources and i don’t feel better after. so...

oh. the one person who makes me feel like i can breathe has me blocked. lol. i’m done. i’m losing it. i’m seriously losing everything.

heather. i really don’t understand this. i don’t understand life. why is everything happening. everything in my personal life is falling apart and then in the world it’s a mess. i’m not gonna do anything dangerous, don’t think that please. the one person who makes me feel better isn’t talking to me....

i’ve never even done hard drugs, i just like the idea of escape.

i don’t know. but i’m okay. i dont think i want to talk anymore

i’m sorry about your dad. mine and me aren’t close by any means but i still love him and want him to be with me when things are how they are. my online friend blew me off for our face time date. she’ll come back with an excuse later. so i’m just gonna listen to lil peep all day and daydream about th...