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Coming out
Coming out
Hi! I know being in my late 20's I'm not a teen anymore, but you always give me such good advice.
I have a boyfriend of 3 years now and we have a wonderful relationship and I really want to move in with him and we're both ready to start living together. However, I am not out to my parents and that's something I would have to do, tho I am extremely scared of doing.
I have a steady job and I'm an adult and my parents are back at my hometown, but I am currently living in my parents' apartment in the city. We had difficulties in our relationship, but now things have been great. I know they're homophobic and we had huge fights about it before. They have already met my boyfriend and think he's wonderful (tho they just think he's a friend). We're not very close, but they do ask a lot of questions and are interested in my life and would definitely wonder and ask why am I moving out of their apartment and where so I can't just cut them off and disappear completely.
I get panic attacks when I think of coming out to them, but it seems like a necessary step to move in with my boyfriend and to start feeling like a completely independent adult. I just don't know how to do it. Do you have any advice and strategies on coming out as gay to your homophobic parents? lol
I am also deeply worried about how my coming out would affect the relationship between my parents, and them and other siblings and relatives and I just keep spiralling to these hypothetical scenarios.
I have a boyfriend of 3 years now and we have a wonderful relationship and I really want to move in with him and we're both ready to start living together. However, I am not out to my parents and that's something I would have to do, tho I am extremely scared of doing.
I have a steady job and I'm an adult and my parents are back at my hometown, but I am currently living in my parents' apartment in the city. We had difficulties in our relationship, but now things have been great. I know they're homophobic and we had huge fights about it before. They have already met my boyfriend and think he's wonderful (tho they just think he's a friend). We're not very close, but they do ask a lot of questions and are interested in my life and would definitely wonder and ask why am I moving out of their apartment and where so I can't just cut them off and disappear completely.
I get panic attacks when I think of coming out to them, but it seems like a necessary step to move in with my boyfriend and to start feeling like a completely independent adult. I just don't know how to do it. Do you have any advice and strategies on coming out as gay to your homophobic parents? lol
I am also deeply worried about how my coming out would affect the relationship between my parents, and them and other siblings and relatives and I just keep spiralling to these hypothetical scenarios.
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Re: Coming out
Hi andrej, good to see you again!
This sounds like a really tough situation to be in, and I can see why it's causing you so much stress.
The tricky thing is that, when it comes to coming out to homophobic parents, sometimes not coming out is really the safest option. But, as you've pointed out, this is also a situation where unless you cut them off completely (which you're in your rights to do if that felt like the safest option), they're probably going to work it out once you're living with your boyfriend, which gives you even less control over your coming out than if you tackled it directly.
One option would be to tell them you're moving in with your "friend" and then tell them once you're already out of the house and living with your boyfriend. It's not that strange for people in their 20s or 30s to live with friends, so it might not tip them off to what's really going on. And if you come out to them once you're no longer in the same house, that could provide a serious buffer for you in terms of their reaction.
Speaking of their reaction, what's your sense of how they're likely to react to this? It sounds like it probably won't be positive (though we can always hope that they surprise you and decide to prioritize their connection with you over their homophobia), but what kind of bad do you think it's likely to be? A big , verbal fight? Trying to hurt you? Threatening to cut off resources you might still need? I ask because different negative reactions require different approaches, especially when it comes to your safety.
You mention you're worried about this effecting the other relationships in your family. Do you mean your relationship with other family members, or the relationships between different family members because some might support you and others might not?
This sounds like a really tough situation to be in, and I can see why it's causing you so much stress.
The tricky thing is that, when it comes to coming out to homophobic parents, sometimes not coming out is really the safest option. But, as you've pointed out, this is also a situation where unless you cut them off completely (which you're in your rights to do if that felt like the safest option), they're probably going to work it out once you're living with your boyfriend, which gives you even less control over your coming out than if you tackled it directly.
One option would be to tell them you're moving in with your "friend" and then tell them once you're already out of the house and living with your boyfriend. It's not that strange for people in their 20s or 30s to live with friends, so it might not tip them off to what's really going on. And if you come out to them once you're no longer in the same house, that could provide a serious buffer for you in terms of their reaction.
Speaking of their reaction, what's your sense of how they're likely to react to this? It sounds like it probably won't be positive (though we can always hope that they surprise you and decide to prioritize their connection with you over their homophobia), but what kind of bad do you think it's likely to be? A big , verbal fight? Trying to hurt you? Threatening to cut off resources you might still need? I ask because different negative reactions require different approaches, especially when it comes to your safety.
You mention you're worried about this effecting the other relationships in your family. Do you mean your relationship with other family members, or the relationships between different family members because some might support you and others might not?
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Re: Coming out
Hi Sam, thank you for your response!
I feel like it would be disrespectful to my boyfriend to just call him a friend in front of my parents. He would be understanding and supportive even of that option, but I feel like it goes against my principles. I also feel like I actually do need to be upfront and honest about myself and the way I live my life. Not like in a in-your-face kind of way, but more in an assertive and self-respectful way. Being upfront with them would help me leave some baggage behind, I feel. I don't feel the need to explain my identity to them, but I do feel the need to give them honesty about my relationship with my boyfriend. I don't need to tell them I'm gay, I just wanna tell them 'he's my boyfriend and we're gonna move in together'.
My parents have made some mistakes, but they really are involved in me and my sisters' lives, I can give them that. They do ask questions, maintain relationships, call me, show interest in my life, etc. That's why it would be really difficult to actively hide some basic information from them (such as where and with whom I live) and I don't want the stress of lying every day.
I am open to them surprising me with a positive reaction, but I don't think it's too likely too happen. Not impossible, but not likely. They caught me watching gay porn when I was 14 and they were raging and even kicked me out of the house (for a few hours, tho) and I felt awful for months, it was a horrible experience. My dad was aggressive and my mom is always exclusively supportive of him and his feelings. We managed to stabilize our relationship over the years and he's definitely less aggressive than ever before, but I still fear his potential verbal abuse and explosive reaction. I don't depend on any of their resources any more (I do still live in an apartment they own in another city, but that's going to change anyway at some point, might as well now) so that's good.
I am afraid they're going to cut me off emotionally and that's gonna hurt a lot, and also that me coming out is going to destroy the relationship between mom and dad, and dad and everyone else. My sisters are supportive of me and my boyfriend, but I know they're still scared of dad and his reaction, even though they're adults as well and live independently. I am also scared of what to tell grandma. I don't want to come out to her, but she's gonna know if me and my parents get into a fight and I'm not sure how to handle that either.
It would be the best if me and my boyfriend would just move to some other country far away, but I feel like that'd be just running away from my problems.
I feel like it would be disrespectful to my boyfriend to just call him a friend in front of my parents. He would be understanding and supportive even of that option, but I feel like it goes against my principles. I also feel like I actually do need to be upfront and honest about myself and the way I live my life. Not like in a in-your-face kind of way, but more in an assertive and self-respectful way. Being upfront with them would help me leave some baggage behind, I feel. I don't feel the need to explain my identity to them, but I do feel the need to give them honesty about my relationship with my boyfriend. I don't need to tell them I'm gay, I just wanna tell them 'he's my boyfriend and we're gonna move in together'.
My parents have made some mistakes, but they really are involved in me and my sisters' lives, I can give them that. They do ask questions, maintain relationships, call me, show interest in my life, etc. That's why it would be really difficult to actively hide some basic information from them (such as where and with whom I live) and I don't want the stress of lying every day.
I am open to them surprising me with a positive reaction, but I don't think it's too likely too happen. Not impossible, but not likely. They caught me watching gay porn when I was 14 and they were raging and even kicked me out of the house (for a few hours, tho) and I felt awful for months, it was a horrible experience. My dad was aggressive and my mom is always exclusively supportive of him and his feelings. We managed to stabilize our relationship over the years and he's definitely less aggressive than ever before, but I still fear his potential verbal abuse and explosive reaction. I don't depend on any of their resources any more (I do still live in an apartment they own in another city, but that's going to change anyway at some point, might as well now) so that's good.
I am afraid they're going to cut me off emotionally and that's gonna hurt a lot, and also that me coming out is going to destroy the relationship between mom and dad, and dad and everyone else. My sisters are supportive of me and my boyfriend, but I know they're still scared of dad and his reaction, even though they're adults as well and live independently. I am also scared of what to tell grandma. I don't want to come out to her, but she's gonna know if me and my parents get into a fight and I'm not sure how to handle that either.
It would be the best if me and my boyfriend would just move to some other country far away, but I feel like that'd be just running away from my problems.
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Re: Coming out
It makes a lot of sense that you're wanting to live a bit more openly, and be able to be truthful about the fact your boyfriend is, well, your boyfriend. But I can absolutely understand how such an intense, awful response from your parents when you were 14, and the fact that it sounds like your dad was (and probably still is) verbally abusive would leave you feeling like coming out in any way is going to be met with a strong, negative reaction.
I think the main question to ask yourself is this: since you're confident being honest about your boyfriend will lead to a negative reaction from your parents, including possibly emotionally cutting you off, how prepared do you feel to deal with the fallout from that? Because ultimately you're the one who can decide when the costs of continuing to be closeted outweigh the costs that might come with your parents reaction to your coming out.
If you feel ready, or close to it, we can talk about the steps you could take to come out and to try and minimize the hurt from their reactions. If it feels like there are still costs--emotional, material, or otherwise--that you're not sure you can handle right now, we can also talk about how to get to a place where those might be more manageable.
I think the main question to ask yourself is this: since you're confident being honest about your boyfriend will lead to a negative reaction from your parents, including possibly emotionally cutting you off, how prepared do you feel to deal with the fallout from that? Because ultimately you're the one who can decide when the costs of continuing to be closeted outweigh the costs that might come with your parents reaction to your coming out.
If you feel ready, or close to it, we can talk about the steps you could take to come out and to try and minimize the hurt from their reactions. If it feels like there are still costs--emotional, material, or otherwise--that you're not sure you can handle right now, we can also talk about how to get to a place where those might be more manageable.
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Huh I don't feel well prepared to deal with possible negative reactions, that's true and that's the main issue. Even though I am objectively in a different position now at almost 30 years old, than I was at 14 when the subject of me being gay first came out, I still feel super scared and anxious. It's like my mind knows that I'm independent and capable of living on my own without their help or support, but my body doesn't believe it.
It would be extremely helpful to get some strategy and tips on how to handle the conversation with them, and also how to handle myself after possible negative reactions from my parents.
I don't know if it would be better to do it in person, in a formal and serious tone, or just casually, should I text them, e-mail them, should I just move in with my boyfriend and tell them as-a-matter-of-factly that that's the situation now,...I don't know :/
I know I have a loving, supportive boyfriend, I know I have a lot of friends and a strong support network. I also know I won't end up in the street cause I have a job and money and can get a place of my own. I also have support in my sisters. These are my resources.
And the cost of staying closeted outweighs even the most negative reaction from them, but me living freely, truthfully and openly. I feel like my skin is too tight and that's time to let it go. I want to leave all that baggage in my 20s and enjoy 30s carefree (at least around this subject). To summarize, I feel it's time, but I'm also paralyzed with fear haha
It would be extremely helpful to get some strategy and tips on how to handle the conversation with them, and also how to handle myself after possible negative reactions from my parents.
I don't know if it would be better to do it in person, in a formal and serious tone, or just casually, should I text them, e-mail them, should I just move in with my boyfriend and tell them as-a-matter-of-factly that that's the situation now,...I don't know :/
I know I have a loving, supportive boyfriend, I know I have a lot of friends and a strong support network. I also know I won't end up in the street cause I have a job and money and can get a place of my own. I also have support in my sisters. These are my resources.
And the cost of staying closeted outweighs even the most negative reaction from them, but me living freely, truthfully and openly. I feel like my skin is too tight and that's time to let it go. I want to leave all that baggage in my 20s and enjoy 30s carefree (at least around this subject). To summarize, I feel it's time, but I'm also paralyzed with fear haha
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Re: Coming out
It makes total sense to me that even as you're nearing 30, your brain still reacts to the idea of coming out to them as if you were 14; their reaction was awful, and your whole brain and body remembers that. So it's reacting with fear and caution because it doesn't want that to happen again, even though logically you know you have way more power to protect and distance yourself than you did as a teenager.
As for how to come out to them while doing as much as you can to shield yourself from their reaction, I think coming out at a distance--over the phone, via email, etc--is likely to be the best call. It means there's literal distance between you and them, but also that you have a way of leaving the interaction if they're aggressive or cruel. You can hang up the phone, or not reply to the email (email does have the added benefit of you not having to immediately deal with their reaction, since there's likely to be at least a little delay).
You're going to be the expert on how you want to phrase and frame your coming out and moving in with your boyfriend. But I'd present it as you telling them, not asking them. In other words, even in your own mind, avoid framing this as something you're asking their permission to do or opening up for debate; this is a done deal, not something they get to try and argue you out of.
I'd also suggest giving your sisters a heads-up before you talk to your parents. That can help you and them plan for how they can support you when/if your parents react badly, but it also keeps them from being blindsided if your parents decide to ask them for information, if they knew, etc (and if any of them are still living at home, they may want to plan to be out when you talk with your parents so they're not dealing with their immediate reaction to the news).
One other thing I'd suggest is to figure out a plan for your self-care or community care after you have this conversation. Things that will help you feel loved and supported, or even help you take your mind off of how the conversation went. Having that plan in place can help a lot, because you know that once the conversation that's worrying you is over, you'll be taken care of.
How does all that sound?
As for how to come out to them while doing as much as you can to shield yourself from their reaction, I think coming out at a distance--over the phone, via email, etc--is likely to be the best call. It means there's literal distance between you and them, but also that you have a way of leaving the interaction if they're aggressive or cruel. You can hang up the phone, or not reply to the email (email does have the added benefit of you not having to immediately deal with their reaction, since there's likely to be at least a little delay).
You're going to be the expert on how you want to phrase and frame your coming out and moving in with your boyfriend. But I'd present it as you telling them, not asking them. In other words, even in your own mind, avoid framing this as something you're asking their permission to do or opening up for debate; this is a done deal, not something they get to try and argue you out of.
I'd also suggest giving your sisters a heads-up before you talk to your parents. That can help you and them plan for how they can support you when/if your parents react badly, but it also keeps them from being blindsided if your parents decide to ask them for information, if they knew, etc (and if any of them are still living at home, they may want to plan to be out when you talk with your parents so they're not dealing with their immediate reaction to the news).
One other thing I'd suggest is to figure out a plan for your self-care or community care after you have this conversation. Things that will help you feel loved and supported, or even help you take your mind off of how the conversation went. Having that plan in place can help a lot, because you know that once the conversation that's worrying you is over, you'll be taken care of.
How does all that sound?
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Re: Coming out
It sounds logical and sensible, I agree with you and thank you.
I think the call would be the best option and me telling them in person in their house would be the worst one. Do you think it's better to tell them together or separately? My mom is easier to handle because she doesn't get verbally abusive, but she always sides with dad and becomes obsesses about him not getting his feelings hurt so I feel she would just try to make me feel guilty and not tell him anything.
It is a good advice to give my sisters a heads-up, thank you. And I absolutely agree on phrasing the words as me telling them, not asking them. Though, I probably am going to sounds scared and passive, I still want them to know that it's a done deal.
I still don't know how to work out the timing and manage the stress and anxiety around it. Also it could probably get my parents involved in a fight between each other and I don't want to feel responsible for disrupting family atmosphere for any of my family members.
I think the call would be the best option and me telling them in person in their house would be the worst one. Do you think it's better to tell them together or separately? My mom is easier to handle because she doesn't get verbally abusive, but she always sides with dad and becomes obsesses about him not getting his feelings hurt so I feel she would just try to make me feel guilty and not tell him anything.
It is a good advice to give my sisters a heads-up, thank you. And I absolutely agree on phrasing the words as me telling them, not asking them. Though, I probably am going to sounds scared and passive, I still want them to know that it's a done deal.
I still don't know how to work out the timing and manage the stress and anxiety around it. Also it could probably get my parents involved in a fight between each other and I don't want to feel responsible for disrupting family atmosphere for any of my family members.
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Re: Coming out
I agree with you that a call sounds like a good option. My inclination would be to tell them both at once, if for no other reason than you only have to have one rough conversation instead of two.
As for how to manage the timing, since you know this is going to be stressful, I'd do what you can to have this talk on a day where you know you have nothing important to handle once you get off the phone. That way you're both giving yourself time and space after it to take care of yourself, and you're not putting something else you need to do--an important project at work, dinner with a friend, etc--at risk of not getting done.
When it comes to managing the stress of this more generally, are there things you find help you feel less stressed when waiting to do something? Or that help you calm down once a stressful thing has passed? Too, you could even plan to do something low-key and fun/distracting after the call as a way of rewarding yourself for doing something really, really hard.
It's really kind of you to be worried about this causing a fight between your parents. But I think an important thing to keep in mind is that if they do fight, they're responsible for that, not you. They can choose how they react to what you tell them, and they can choose how to interact with each other in the wake of what you tell them. You're doing your part by being honest and open about this; what the choose to do with this news is on them, you know?
As for how to manage the timing, since you know this is going to be stressful, I'd do what you can to have this talk on a day where you know you have nothing important to handle once you get off the phone. That way you're both giving yourself time and space after it to take care of yourself, and you're not putting something else you need to do--an important project at work, dinner with a friend, etc--at risk of not getting done.
When it comes to managing the stress of this more generally, are there things you find help you feel less stressed when waiting to do something? Or that help you calm down once a stressful thing has passed? Too, you could even plan to do something low-key and fun/distracting after the call as a way of rewarding yourself for doing something really, really hard.
It's really kind of you to be worried about this causing a fight between your parents. But I think an important thing to keep in mind is that if they do fight, they're responsible for that, not you. They can choose how they react to what you tell them, and they can choose how to interact with each other in the wake of what you tell them. You're doing your part by being honest and open about this; what the choose to do with this news is on them, you know?
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Re: Coming out
Yes, I will need a break after that phone call. It is possible that they're going to keep calling me throughout the day or even week, but I'll see what's my strategy going to be, depending on their first reaction.
And their relationship is between them, I agree.
I just don't know if it's better to tell them 'Hey, you know X, he is my boyfriend' or 'Hey, I'm gonna move in with X', or is it even better to just do it and if they ask me where am I moving to and with whom i just shrug and say 'With X'. And if they have further questions, it's on them to ask them. They like lying to themselves in order to believe what they want to believe so maybe I can just leave it to them to fill in the blanks the way they want to. At the end of the day, it was their parental responsibility to create a relationship of trust between us. And if I don't trust them with myself, that's because I don't feel safe enough to do so. What do you think?
And their relationship is between them, I agree.
I just don't know if it's better to tell them 'Hey, you know X, he is my boyfriend' or 'Hey, I'm gonna move in with X', or is it even better to just do it and if they ask me where am I moving to and with whom i just shrug and say 'With X'. And if they have further questions, it's on them to ask them. They like lying to themselves in order to believe what they want to believe so maybe I can just leave it to them to fill in the blanks the way they want to. At the end of the day, it was their parental responsibility to create a relationship of trust between us. And if I don't trust them with myself, that's because I don't feel safe enough to do so. What do you think?
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Re: Coming out
Hi there Andrej,
I hope it’s okay if I step into the conversation. (As someone who isn't out to most of their family either for similar reasons, I can relate to a lot of what you shared)
I would like to start from the ending because that sentence is a really important and truthful one. You are absolutely right, there is a reason why you are worried about coming out to your parents and that is that they signalled you pretty strongly that they might not be accepting. It’s not on us to educate our parents, share all our lives and identities with them or come out to them in a way that would be best for them and would make them understand (as there even isn’t such one way, their reaction will always be about them rather than about the way we do it).
As for the options for telling them, what will be better depends solely on you and what you want from the conversation. Do you want to come out to them, give them a chance to accept you as you are and do you feel able to deal with a bad reaction? Or do you just want to move out with your boyfriend, not share your sexual identity with them and not have to deal with any other possible problems? Or do you want to leave it up to chance (and your parents) and only tell them X is your boyfriend if they ask?
As I see it, the first option potentially adds a lot of stress but on the other hand it would be over with and you wouldn’t have to wonder about their reaction or censor yourself in front of them anymore. The second option minimizes the chance of homophobic reaction and moving in with you boyfriend can help prepare the ground for coming out later, but you have to be ready to answer their possible inquiring questions. The third option leaves you were uncertain of what to expect from the conversation but leave you the most maneuvering space to adjust things as it evolves. What do you think?
I hope it’s okay if I step into the conversation. (As someone who isn't out to most of their family either for similar reasons, I can relate to a lot of what you shared)
I would like to start from the ending because that sentence is a really important and truthful one. You are absolutely right, there is a reason why you are worried about coming out to your parents and that is that they signalled you pretty strongly that they might not be accepting. It’s not on us to educate our parents, share all our lives and identities with them or come out to them in a way that would be best for them and would make them understand (as there even isn’t such one way, their reaction will always be about them rather than about the way we do it).
As for the options for telling them, what will be better depends solely on you and what you want from the conversation. Do you want to come out to them, give them a chance to accept you as you are and do you feel able to deal with a bad reaction? Or do you just want to move out with your boyfriend, not share your sexual identity with them and not have to deal with any other possible problems? Or do you want to leave it up to chance (and your parents) and only tell them X is your boyfriend if they ask?
As I see it, the first option potentially adds a lot of stress but on the other hand it would be over with and you wouldn’t have to wonder about their reaction or censor yourself in front of them anymore. The second option minimizes the chance of homophobic reaction and moving in with you boyfriend can help prepare the ground for coming out later, but you have to be ready to answer their possible inquiring questions. The third option leaves you were uncertain of what to expect from the conversation but leave you the most maneuvering space to adjust things as it evolves. What do you think?
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Re: Coming out
Hi Andy,
thank you so much for your response.
Yes, I try to remind my self that their emotions are not my responsibility (even though I often feel responsible for it). I need to think about me and what would be the best for them, what kind of coming out would be best for me.
Thank you for laying out all of the options so clearly! I think priority number 1 is to just share with them a technical info about me moving somewhere else with someone else and that someone else is X (whom they have met). It's funny how they really like X, he's a doctor which they love and they would be thrilled if he was my sister's boyfriend haha.
Having them accept me is not a priority, but it would be nice, though risky. I'm actually in favor of this option, doing something really stressful all at once and setting myself completely free after that. I also need to find a way to convey this to them in a warm, but unapologetic way.
thank you so much for your response.
Yes, I try to remind my self that their emotions are not my responsibility (even though I often feel responsible for it). I need to think about me and what would be the best for them, what kind of coming out would be best for me.
Thank you for laying out all of the options so clearly! I think priority number 1 is to just share with them a technical info about me moving somewhere else with someone else and that someone else is X (whom they have met). It's funny how they really like X, he's a doctor which they love and they would be thrilled if he was my sister's boyfriend haha.
Having them accept me is not a priority, but it would be nice, though risky. I'm actually in favor of this option, doing something really stressful all at once and setting myself completely free after that. I also need to find a way to convey this to them in a warm, but unapologetic way.
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Re: Coming out
I'm glad what Andy laid out was helpful! And it sounds like you have a pretty clear sense of how you want to proceed, which is awesome.
You know, when it comes to how to convey this to them in a warm, unapologetic way, how you frame it might help a lot, even if it's just in your own mind. If you approach the conversation like you're sharing something that you're ultimately not ashamed of, and that you're giving them the chance to know you better, it might feel easier to convey things the way you're hoping to.
You know, when it comes to how to convey this to them in a warm, unapologetic way, how you frame it might help a lot, even if it's just in your own mind. If you approach the conversation like you're sharing something that you're ultimately not ashamed of, and that you're giving them the chance to know you better, it might feel easier to convey things the way you're hoping to.
And you to whom adversity has dealt the final blow/with smiling bastards lying to you everywhere you go/turn to and put out all your strength of arm and heart and brain/and like the Mary Ellen Carter rise again.
Re: Coming out
Yes, I agree definitely! I've started therapy just to see if there are any underlying layers of shame and/or guilt about my sexuality. I think for me the biggest issue isn't potential autohomophobia, but maybe the fear of failing masculinity? I don't know yet. I know the worst reaction that scares me the most is not necessarily their anger, but their potential disgust.
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Re: Coming out
I'm glad you've been able to start therapy to get some support in dealing with any underlying shame, that's a great step in terms of taking care of yourself! If you have a chance, I think talking with your therapist about what to do if your parents react with disgust is a good plan, just so you have a few tools in place if they do so.
I will say that, in my experience, reminding yourself, or even reading up on, the diversity of not only human sexual behavior but sexual behavior in animals more broadly can be helpful in dealing with feelings of disgust around sex or sexuality.
Because, it basically provides a counter point to a lot of the ideas that drive disgust; it reminds us that there isn't one set of sexual behaviors that's okay and another that's gross or bad, there are just the sexual behaviors that make each individual person happy. And that there isn't such a thing as sex that goes against nature (a common justification for disgust) because sexual behavior within nature is way more varied than people assume (and includes plenty of same sex behavior).
I will say that, in my experience, reminding yourself, or even reading up on, the diversity of not only human sexual behavior but sexual behavior in animals more broadly can be helpful in dealing with feelings of disgust around sex or sexuality.
Because, it basically provides a counter point to a lot of the ideas that drive disgust; it reminds us that there isn't one set of sexual behaviors that's okay and another that's gross or bad, there are just the sexual behaviors that make each individual person happy. And that there isn't such a thing as sex that goes against nature (a common justification for disgust) because sexual behavior within nature is way more varied than people assume (and includes plenty of same sex behavior).
And you to whom adversity has dealt the final blow/with smiling bastards lying to you everywhere you go/turn to and put out all your strength of arm and heart and brain/and like the Mary Ellen Carter rise again.
Re: Coming out
That is a really good point, thank you. Thank you so much Sam and Andy, it was really helpful to talk things through with you two, I appreciate it so much <3
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You're very welcome, and I'm so glad we were able to talk with you and offer some help!
And you to whom adversity has dealt the final blow/with smiling bastards lying to you everywhere you go/turn to and put out all your strength of arm and heart and brain/and like the Mary Ellen Carter rise again.
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