So, after he tried performing a little bit of oral sex on me, he kissed me which felt amazing. I love love love to kiss him and be close to him. (In fact, being close to him like that just makes me want to kiss him more). But when I went to kiss him after performing oral sex on him, he recoiled and said I couldn’t kiss him until my mouth was clean—so I got up and went to go brush my teeth and came back before we could kiss again.
For me, I don’t mind, because they are all just bodily fluids and body parts (And we’re both very clean). I told him this point of view and he said it’s different since he has a penis—he thinks the fluids down there are really really gross, and he hates the idea of tasting his own semen.
I understand that it is his preference and he never, EVER has to do any sex acts (like kissing) he doesn’t want to do. But somehow, his disgusted reaction made me feel really bad, like he thinks my mouth is dirty after I did that with him. I feel really bad about this, and the prospect of giving him oral sex in the future. Which I WANT to feel excited about, because when I did it, it was really fun and exciting! (It’s the first time either of us are doing anything like this!) How do I navigate this situation?