pee or something else, orgasm or not and uncontrollable masturbation

[Gracie_sex]

ok so I have been masturbating since I was 12.
lately when I masturbate, I feel like I am getting there and this liquid type thing and it smells like pee, but it can't be because I have catheter cause of medical issues, so I don't know what it is, but it is just all over me after I finish masturbating.
now I don't know if I am having an orgasm or not but when I masturbate as I said above throughout my masturbation session, I have like this pee type thing come out, but I have a catheter so I can't pee so what is it, but I get this feeling of release and it feels like a release of how tight I was and then I get this Tingley feeling throughout my body and I don't know what it is like what is it is something wrong with me
I am masturbating about 5 times a day sometimes more and I get aroused easily even though there is nothing to be aroused over

[KierC]

Hi Gracie! It’s good to see you here!

This sounds to me like you’re experiencing ejaculation or “squirting.” When you have a catheter, the urethra is covered as you know, but there are some paraurethral glands, like the Skene’s gland, surrounding the urethra that can still be stimulated to produce the liquid you’re noticing. It doesn’t always happen with orgasm, but we understand it to happen most often when the G-spot, clitoris, or a combination of the two are stimulated. From what you’re describing (a feeling of release, then a tingly feeling all over), it sounds like you might actually be experiencing orgasm as well! Rest assured, there’s nothing wrong with you for this.

Researchers have discussed this back and forth, and for awhile (and in some misinformed internet circles still, I think) folks would think that “squirting” is just urinating. But we know that’s not true! Especially because you have a catheter, it’s definitely not urine from your urethra but it seems like it could be fluid coming from the Skene’s gland!

Did that answer your questions?

[Gracie_sex]

yeah also I am having to masturbate a lot during the day and it is cutting into daily life

[mikky]

Hey Gracie_sex,

I've been reading your posts with various questions about how to masturbate longer, how to have an orgasm, what is going on when you masturbate... it sounds like this might be occupying your mind quite a bit!

When you say that you have to masturbate, what do you mean?

What do you usually feel before masturbation? I know you said you feel easily aroused, but I wonder what that experience is like for you?

And (sorry for so many questions) but do you have other life enriching and bodily affirming activities that you are doing while in residential care?

[Gracie_sex]

I have to masturbate to make the feeling go away and then I always have this pee type thing come out but again it makes no sense because I have a catheter and I can't pee so that is like what is it and whats wrong with me
before masturbating I feel like my mind goes in to a place and it won't come out it only stops when I masturbate
I don't understand the last question sorry

[mikky]

Let me clarify my last question!
By life enriching, I mean any things that feel good and fill up time, like doing some art, texting friends, journaling, spending time outside, playing a game, or whatever else (for me, it would be seeing my friends and working here).

By bodily affirming, I mean things that make you feel good to be in your body. That might be things like exercise, stretching, masturbation, eating something really delicious, taking a bath, or getting your hair braided.

Did you see Sofi's reply about ejaculation/squirting? That could be the pee-like fluid you are experiencing.

[Gracie_sex]

yes masturbation

[Straif]

Hi Gracie,
It sounds like masturbation may currently be one of the few outlets you have to feel good in your body. So, let's start with a healthy dose of self-compassion because it's understandable that you're looking for ways to fulfill that need. However, you also say that masturbation is "cutting into" daily life, which does pose a concern that I'm glad you're trying to address. What does that "daily life" entail? Are any of the things Mikky mentioned above on your list?

[Gracie_sex]

like going out
getting chores done
no free time because of masturbating etc

[Latha]

Hello Gracie!

I can see how it would be frustrating if masturbation is leaving you with no free time, but that is the only thing you've found that helps when you feel aroused. Don't worry--we can try to brainstorm some ways you could approach this together, and then we'll see what works.

Just to get a better understanding of how you are feeling, what happens when you don't masturbate? What have you tried, and how do you feel?

[Gracie_sex]

when I don't masturbate it gets uncomfortable and just gets worse and worse and worse down there until I masturbate and when I leave it all of the time it gets so uncomfortable, and I can't do anything until I masturbate
also why do I squirt so much now when I never squirted before and why do I orgasm so much when I have never orgasmed before until a week I orgasm and squirt a lot like why is that

[Latha]

Hi Gracie!

So it sounds like your body has been responding differently recently, given that orgasming and squirting are new to you. This change might just be because you have practiced, and you've learned to masturbate in a way that consistently leads to orgasms/squirting. It could be that you've been feeling more aroused these days, making it easier to orgasm. Maybe you've tried a new masturbation technique lately. Maybe it is hormonal. There are so many possible reasons why you might be orgasming/squirting now when you did not before. I could guess, but I couldn't tell you for sure why this is happening.

Does that make sense? Do any of these reasons seem right to you?

when I leave it all of the time it gets so uncomfortable

I'm sorry to hear that it gets so uncomfortable! If I may ask, what do you usually do when you are leaving it? How do you try to distract yourself?

[Gracie_sex]

I don't know maybe the feeling more aroused one. When it gets uncomfortable, I try and do schoolwork, music, talk to friend, but it always gets too uncomfortable. Also, about the squirting why does it come out like a gush it seems weird on how it comes out like that and how many times is normal to squirt in one masturbation session

[lilikoi]

Hey there Gracie!

When it comes to any sexual activity, normal is not a helpful measurement. Every body is different! Most important is safety, comfort, and satisfaction. If you are uncomfortable with squirting, you could try different masturbation techniques such as focusing on external stimulation instead of internal. This article goes into detail about squirting and could answer a lot of your questions.

I think your strategies for managing the discomfort are awesome! Sounds like you are doing your best to maintain your other daily routines. You could try making a routine for yourself where masturbation is something you only do at a certain time of day. Have you tried doing that before?

[Gracie_sex]

yeah it is just getting really intense and I am struggling to wait it out now

[KierC]

Hi Gracie!

I hear you that it’s hard to wait it out. Do you have other activities you enjoy doing with your time that you could incorporate into more of your daily routine? I saw Mikky talked about this a bit, but do you have any other activities in your routine that are life-enriching or body-affirming? I wanted to ask too, when you say it’s hard to wait it out, is that a feeling of arousal you experience, or do you find it to be a feeling of stress and needing release?

[Gracie_sex]

it is the arousal getting too much and the feeling of release and I have been noticing that I come and squirt a lot during each masturbation session, is that normal? also I don't know if I am orgasming or not but it always feels like a big release like my vagina is tight anymore and a huge tingly feeling throughout my body

[Sofi]

There's not really a "normal" when it comes to sex because all bodies are different but it is natural and not uncommon to ejaculate a lot. Orgasm and ejaculation are not actually always the same thing - often, they go hand in hand, but they can also be separate. When we talk about orgasm it's a physiological sensation (you feel it in your vaginal muscles, abdominal muscles, etc. and of course, mentally you feel it as well). Whereas squirting, or ejaculating, is just the physical release of fluids and doesn't necessarily happen at the same time. Based on your description of feeling a change in tightness in your vaginal muscles and a tingly feeling all through your body, it does sound like you're experiencing orgasms while you squirt.