I feel like an animal

[blackberrybuds]

Okay well not exactly.

As of right now I consider myself a libramasculine person who uses masculine and gender neutral terms and this is how I kinda perceive my gender, or at the very least how I wish things were.

For example if you look at a group of cats, you'll see them as cats before you see them as either male or female. I sometimes see myself as just another human before I see myself as a man. And the same thing goes for other people too. They're just a genderless unlabeled person to me before girl or boy.

Though I also enjoy being referred to as a man and dressing up as one. I'll forever identify more with manhood then I ever will with womanhood due to my trauma. And at the same time I love being androgynous while leaning a bit more to looking masculine. Because I want people to be confused on my gender without eventually assuming I may be a girl.

Something I've never heard anyone else talk about this but I absolutely hate the term "transgender". Am I transgender? Yes. Will I ever identify with it? Absolutely not. And I'm pretty sure it's because trans phones have forever ruined it for me because everytime I get called transgender I just feel like I'm this delusional and mentally kid that needs to be corrected. I don't really love being called "trans" either but it's much better than transgender. That's why I most identify with microlabels because they feel much more humanizing and personal to me.

Thank you for reading!