Dysmorphia or Pregnancy?
Posted: Fri Dec 25, 2020 11:06 pm
TW for weight!
I’m roughly 5 feet tall, and 125 pounds. Not the healthiest according to BMI, and knowing that causes issues for me. I have some stomach fat like a lot of people, and from my perspective, it looks large. This typically doesn’t bother me, usually I can tell myself it’s normal fat distribution and move on. But I just had a moment in the shower that panicked me.
I have a fear of pregnancy. I’ve mentioned it in previous board posts. Because of this, small things can set me off into anxiety. I have a diagnosis for GAD and have previously gone to therapy for it, but haven’t in the past ~2 years due to costs.
I look down in shower and think “huh I should probably pick up a little more exercise”. But for whatever reason, I don’t move on. I just keep staring, and think “I look like some people when they’re 2,3,4 months pregnant”. I panicked a got out of the shower.
I haven’t had sex since October 12 due a number of reasons, but every time I have had sex, I use condoms and make him pull out. I also take combination pills regularly alongside normal medications, I haven’t missed a dose within the past six months. I haven’t had pregnancy symptoms, and have had normal bleeding when that time in my pill packet comes. But I just can’t get it out of my head that I look pregnant, that things can otherwise be normal and I’m pregnant. Getting an abortion would be difficult, I have pro-life parents and my state requires parental permission to get an abortion. Am I just experiencing some kind of body dysmorphia, or is there the slimmest possibility that I could be pregnant?
I’m roughly 5 feet tall, and 125 pounds. Not the healthiest according to BMI, and knowing that causes issues for me. I have some stomach fat like a lot of people, and from my perspective, it looks large. This typically doesn’t bother me, usually I can tell myself it’s normal fat distribution and move on. But I just had a moment in the shower that panicked me.
I have a fear of pregnancy. I’ve mentioned it in previous board posts. Because of this, small things can set me off into anxiety. I have a diagnosis for GAD and have previously gone to therapy for it, but haven’t in the past ~2 years due to costs.
I look down in shower and think “huh I should probably pick up a little more exercise”. But for whatever reason, I don’t move on. I just keep staring, and think “I look like some people when they’re 2,3,4 months pregnant”. I panicked a got out of the shower.
I haven’t had sex since October 12 due a number of reasons, but every time I have had sex, I use condoms and make him pull out. I also take combination pills regularly alongside normal medications, I haven’t missed a dose within the past six months. I haven’t had pregnancy symptoms, and have had normal bleeding when that time in my pill packet comes. But I just can’t get it out of my head that I look pregnant, that things can otherwise be normal and I’m pregnant. Getting an abortion would be difficult, I have pro-life parents and my state requires parental permission to get an abortion. Am I just experiencing some kind of body dysmorphia, or is there the slimmest possibility that I could be pregnant?