Wanting Sexual Connection Underage
Posted: Mon Jun 14, 2021 11:49 pm
I... don't know exactly how to word this. I (16M) am, as most non-ace teenagers are, horny. All the frickin' time. And it bugs the hell outta me, especially when I'm around my more traditional family members that frown on that kinda thing. Tangent aside, I have had extreme troubles regulating my emotions regarding sex. I, as of the past few months, desperately crave emotional connection in my sexual experiences. For the longest time, I have been content watching porn and masturbating. But as of late, especially at night and even as I type this, I have intense cravings for some sort of real, human sexual connection.
I think it has always been here, but I've managed it by writing erotica that explores some of my sexual fantasies. Until right about now. I have erotic roleplayed in the past, and still continue to (even though yes, ik it's bad and I shouldn't lie abt my age cuz I could get someone in trouble) because I just can't flippin' handle being alone and having no partner on the other side. All I want is to feel loved and lusted after. Wanted. And all these fake people in porn want their partners. Their love interests. No one wants me, not for who I truly am or even a fake version of me. Why would they, if they knew my age? I'm too young and could get them in trouble, disabled in real life, and have a bunch of offputting, gross kinks that I would have to go to online forums or Discord Servers I'm too young to join to talk to anyone about. Not to mention I'm unattractive.
Does anyone else feel these urges? Because I can masturbate to porn, but it doesn't satisfy me. Not like having the girl/guy of my dreams to fool around with and fall in love with, or even a FWB fling with someone who just wants me for my body would.
I just need some advice on how to cope with these feelings. The pandemic has made things harder than ever, and even if I could find someone interested in me, I don't even know how it'd work with my Cerebral Palsy, cuz I don't wanna put all, or even most of the burden on my partner. Not to mention the fact that my parents (who are themselves teen parents who had me at my age) don't want me to have sex at this age, and I don't like to hide things from them.
Is there some sorta legal loophole or safe space that would allow me to erotic roleplay with people that I can join and let people know my real age? If not, what are my other options?
I think it has always been here, but I've managed it by writing erotica that explores some of my sexual fantasies. Until right about now. I have erotic roleplayed in the past, and still continue to (even though yes, ik it's bad and I shouldn't lie abt my age cuz I could get someone in trouble) because I just can't flippin' handle being alone and having no partner on the other side. All I want is to feel loved and lusted after. Wanted. And all these fake people in porn want their partners. Their love interests. No one wants me, not for who I truly am or even a fake version of me. Why would they, if they knew my age? I'm too young and could get them in trouble, disabled in real life, and have a bunch of offputting, gross kinks that I would have to go to online forums or Discord Servers I'm too young to join to talk to anyone about. Not to mention I'm unattractive.
Does anyone else feel these urges? Because I can masturbate to porn, but it doesn't satisfy me. Not like having the girl/guy of my dreams to fool around with and fall in love with, or even a FWB fling with someone who just wants me for my body would.
I just need some advice on how to cope with these feelings. The pandemic has made things harder than ever, and even if I could find someone interested in me, I don't even know how it'd work with my Cerebral Palsy, cuz I don't wanna put all, or even most of the burden on my partner. Not to mention the fact that my parents (who are themselves teen parents who had me at my age) don't want me to have sex at this age, and I don't like to hide things from them.
Is there some sorta legal loophole or safe space that would allow me to erotic roleplay with people that I can join and let people know my real age? If not, what are my other options?