I Feel Like My C-PTSD Ruins My Relationships
Posted: Tue Mar 29, 2022 10:21 pm
Hi, I’m AFAB, neurodivergent, and 20 years old. I have depression, anxiety, and C-PTSD from sexual trauma. I have a history of entering into relationships that don’t last long-term. I think this because of my mental illness. I feel like I’m incapable of being loved and care for. Self love for a traumatized/intellectually disabled person is harder to do compared to nuerotypical people.
Outside of my relationships, it’s hard for me to maintain a job, and I can’t go to college due to my disability. It seems like nothing in my life is ever stable. My friends and family don’t care if I struggle, and I go to psychiatry and therapy, but I feel like everything in my life is turbulent.
I put this post in relationships because the only thing I want in my life is to have a stable and happily relationship that’ll end in marriage. I want someone to care and provide for me. It’s hard searching for that when every relationship I end up in never progresses. My friends are in long term relationships. Should I just give up? No one wants to be in a relationship with someone who’s broken as me.
Does anyone have articles or podcasts or some of media about anyone who’s going through the same situation as me? I live in a small town, so there’s little to no services for YA who are ND or mentally disturbed.
Outside of my relationships, it’s hard for me to maintain a job, and I can’t go to college due to my disability. It seems like nothing in my life is ever stable. My friends and family don’t care if I struggle, and I go to psychiatry and therapy, but I feel like everything in my life is turbulent.
I put this post in relationships because the only thing I want in my life is to have a stable and happily relationship that’ll end in marriage. I want someone to care and provide for me. It’s hard searching for that when every relationship I end up in never progresses. My friends are in long term relationships. Should I just give up? No one wants to be in a relationship with someone who’s broken as me.
Does anyone have articles or podcasts or some of media about anyone who’s going through the same situation as me? I live in a small town, so there’s little to no services for YA who are ND or mentally disturbed.