I am a minor and have changed my mind about my sexuality often since I was 13.
It’s kind of complicated but I will start
I believe to be an aroace lesbian but I am not complete sure
Some people would probably say that it’s dumb that I say that I am ace even tho I am still a minor but it just depends on people
I dislike physical touch and am grossed out by the idea of sex
Aro:
I have never really had a crush on anyone
I once liked a guy but I guess I just liked the way he looked like plus we were seven
The second guy I have crushed on was my childhood bestfriend but I realised I just liked the attention I was getting from him in like a sibling form
Basically I just saw him like my brother because he is older then me and literally like a genderbend version of me fr we have the same personality
And I know its weird that I am probably a lesbian but have never had a crush on a girl but let me explain
I grew up in a Balkan country and let me tell you people there are very homophobic so yea I always gaslighted myself into thinking I am not lesbian lol
So when I was in Kinder Garten I kind of once made out with a guy cuz we were curious and didn’t know what we were doing but I didn’t like it really and the same thing with a girl in first grade but I liked it that’s why I secretly thought I was a lesbian till 5th grade a little bit after 6th grade covid started and I started being on social media and got to know more about lgbtq+ and I related to lots of things I once thought I were bi once pan once omni demigirl literally almost everything possible ,one thing I have been sure of for 2 years now is ,that I am ace, I recently realised I am probably also aro because I dislike physical touch from anyone but I still would like to be in a relation ship just without kissing or sex and I don’t really know about hugging but kissing probably a few times but I can only imagine it if I love the person to much I can never imagine myself touching or kissing anyone that I don’t really like I hope someone gets what I mean and I can not imagine myself being with a guy anymore
Also what I mean is that I could never just randomly kiss anyone it would take probably years of me developing feelings for a person
I am saying anymore because till last year I found a few guy hot but I can’t say that anymore and also I have felt very uncomfortable around guys since long time, just not my old bff,they are just creepy to me lol
I am confused because I my dreams are often about the future and I saw two flags
One ace and one omni
But I don’t indenture as omni because I can’t even imagine myself with anyone else then a girl really and forgot to mention that the only guys I have found attractive were more of the feminine type
So i just wanted to know what you think about this ? do you think I am lesbian or just confused or am I even aro or can I even be aroace lesbian?