i feel so scared. i can't shake the fear and anxiety of getting possibly pregnant from this (i've been reading the resources here but i keep getting worried that maybe he touched the damp spot and got semen on his fingers etc). and how am i supposed to tell my boyfriend? what if he gets mad at me? how do i face thisguy friend? i have to see him quite often too. i feel so shameful and disgusting i wish i could've just done something to prevent it. and like i know i could've done something to not let this happen and i justfeel so incompetent
![Crying or Very Sad :cry:](./images/smilies/icon_cry.gif)
i was conscious (like i could feel, see, and sense everything happening) and i remember it all, i just couldn't move at that time and that makes me feel even dumber because whydidn't i just push him off or say no.
and now everything the people at school said about me being a whore feels so true. i just feel so scared and confused
i'm so sorry for this long vent thing, i just didn't know who to talk to about this