then I had another crush and a sort of situationship (?) (we liked each other but nothing happened)
then that crush returned (but it wasn't like the first time, they were more gay panics) + I can't like her bc she says she's an ally but she has some weird behaviours
then it got away again (I didn't have other crushes, just some people that I find cute)
but yesterday due to a game she had to give me a massage and I can't stop thinking about it