i hate being a bottom so much
Posted: Sat Jun 22, 2024 4:11 am
i'm just really afraid of perpetuating stereotypes about trans men. i don't want people to come away from encounters with me and keep thinking all trans guys are uwu soft boy bottoms. and i'm also afraid of not being seen as a man by my future partners. the reason for this stereotype is that people think we're just women with short hair and different pronouns. and i don't want to contribute to that. i don't want people to see me like that.
i've considered conditioning myself to be dominant. but whenever i think about scenarios where i'm in a dominant position, that i previously enjoyed on the opposite side of things, i feel at best very slightly into it, usually decently uncomfortable and not into it at all, and at worst it puts me on the verge of having a panic attack. it doesn't work, i can't make myself into a top. maybe i'm just not trying hard enough.
i don't know how to go about changing my nature. or if it's even worth the time. if i could, i'd wave my magic wand and not be like this anymore. i hate how i am and i hate feeling like i'll never be a real man because of it.
i've considered conditioning myself to be dominant. but whenever i think about scenarios where i'm in a dominant position, that i previously enjoyed on the opposite side of things, i feel at best very slightly into it, usually decently uncomfortable and not into it at all, and at worst it puts me on the verge of having a panic attack. it doesn't work, i can't make myself into a top. maybe i'm just not trying hard enough.
i don't know how to go about changing my nature. or if it's even worth the time. if i could, i'd wave my magic wand and not be like this anymore. i hate how i am and i hate feeling like i'll never be a real man because of it.