Scarleteen

Hello
For the context, I had unprotected anal sex 17 days ago but I did everything I could to wipe and wash myself immediately to not let anything leak out, I thought it was fine. I didn't have piv sex and no one was touching or pushing anything into me. I turned on my back immediately as well to prevent leaking. I got my period 7 days ago just on time with the predicted date and everything seemed normal. I had heavy bleeding with lots of blood clots for 3 days, a bit less on 4th and on 5th and 6th only some spotting with brownish discharge. I had my usual PMS before period and everything was just normal.
I know I may have OCD so the time frame before period was very stressful for me but since I got my period I was relieved. Problems came yesterday when I started to have pains in my abdomen and belly button area. I started to panic and think something went wrong. But everyone tell me that it is my OCD messing with me. I am quite constipated since 2-3 days (and I generally have something wrong with bowels I believe, sudden constipations took place a few times already) so it's kinda logical my stomach would be quite upset? But I am just so scared rn that what if that wasn't my period but nothing out of ordinary happened, it was normal. Stress and scare mess up with me, now my mind is telling me that my stomach and pain in my left lower back is for sure pregnancy but it just doesn't make sense for me like - how? If anything hurt me more it was just that belly button area the most and left abdomen area.
I haven't taken a pregnancy test before that period cause it was just too early for that.
I am honestly so scared but literally everyone I asked about it told me it doesn't make sense to be pregnant and had a full period ON TIME. Am I paranoid? The stress is making me shake and sick which turns my overthinking even more - "it's a pregnancy sign". I know bleedings could happen in pregnancy but... It was normal, I checked especially for these blood clots and the consistency of blood and everything was just fine. But my sick mind is telling me all the time that something is not right and that it is IT for sure...
I won't have any sexual encounter again, it's too much for me. I just wanna know if I am being paranoid, messing my mental health even more.

Hi there, serek.

It seems from your previous posts that there is a pattern here.

Since you still feel scared about a possible pregnancy, then the next step would be to take a pregnancy test. You're right: getting your usual period and being pregnant isn't at all likely, but here you are, back here again, worried about it. The only way to know for sure isn't, alas, to ask us, because we can't know, but to take a test.

How about you do that and see what that seeing that undoubtedly negative result does for you?

I was thinking about getting it tomorrow but it's literally making me sick to even think about "what if that result is positive" but it's just not logical. Why would it be positive after a full period? I am strongly constipated since these 3 days so it would make sense my stomach hurts. But I guess I have no other choice to calm myself down. These thoughts about "What I would do if there is a positive result, my life would be over" are draining me. I promised myself after that situation I won't engage anymore, I am too weak for that. I just want this last time to everything be fine but my own body and mind is confusing me.

serek,
you're on the right track by acknowledging that these thoughts are draining and not serving you well. holding to that is going to be your friend when these thoughts come up. Go ahead and take that pregnancy test like Heather said.
I also suggest finding some other stuff to focus on instead of the possibilities of pregnancy. paying more attention to what may be going on with your digestive system is a good place to start, especially if you think something may be wrong. Is there anything that you think could have triggered the constipation?

Also, turning to a hobby or soothing activity can be a great crutch in dispelling the anxious thoughts. I will say, you're ahead of most people, simply by being aware of how draining it is to stay in this thought pattern.

I get that taking the test is going to create some anxiety for you, to be sure. But at this point, if you want the answer ot "Am I pregnant or am I just in my head with this?" a test is the only way to get that answer.

We're always happy to sit on the boards or in chat with someone while they test if you think having some support at the ready during the process will help you out.