Was I sexually assaulted?
Posted: Tue Nov 05, 2024 1:14 am
I was making out with my (now ex) boyfriend in his house on his bed. Suddenly he was fully undressed and reaching for a condom. I had let him rub his penis over my clitoris before, so I let him do it again. he didn't ask but it kinda felt like a given, you know? Anyways I tried to push his penis away after a second because I was still wearing all my clothes on top and my shorts were still on my leg and I wanted to get the shorts off and be more comfortable, but he took that as an invitation to enter inside me, which I had previously clearly expressed I didn't want to do. I put my hand on his chest and tried to push him but he just kept going. I didn't know what to do, I felt like I had rocks in my throat and couldn't make words, and I just closed my eyes and waited for it to be over while he said "I love you, you know I love you"
when he finished we had sex again 2 more times that day, after told him I didn't want to, but he only finished the second time, not the third. I went home feeling guilty, sad, and alone because I believed that my parents would call me stupid for letting this happen. After I dumping him 2 months later I still do not know what really happened. I don't know if I overreacted or if im valid in my feelings. I can't talk to anyone in my family because im scared of their judgement. Every time I see his name I panic, and its generally very hard for me to cope with everyday life and relationships because of it.
when he finished we had sex again 2 more times that day, after told him I didn't want to, but he only finished the second time, not the third. I went home feeling guilty, sad, and alone because I believed that my parents would call me stupid for letting this happen. After I dumping him 2 months later I still do not know what really happened. I don't know if I overreacted or if im valid in my feelings. I can't talk to anyone in my family because im scared of their judgement. Every time I see his name I panic, and its generally very hard for me to cope with everyday life and relationships because of it.