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[CuteKitten]

Hi all so after the last few months I have been part of an online kinky community. It nice to have a community where everyone has a shared interest and I had developed perceived online friends. Basically in this discord there is a section called Safe Space where you can talk about things that might be upsetting or concerned about. A few days ago I posed in the safe space saying that irl I was dealing with a lot of stress with run up to exams and that I was using hypnosis as a way to deal with that stress. I asked if this was an ok relationship to have with hypnosis and could it lead to addiction (maybe a better word would have been dependence also I heard that sub frezy was a thing and wondered if I had it.) So then with no warning 2 days ago my discord stopped working, I though oh this is weird maybe it needs an update, so left it for 2 days. Today I tried to ask for help on twitter as I knew a few of there usernames and ask why its happening I got no reply. Then later on today I got a message from one of the discord members and said I had got banned and he was sorry. He said I got banned because "the combination of potentially being reportable (enough that could link evidence to a reporting service) and highlighting an issue with the kink the server is there for/relates directly to her business means that action has to be taken to remove either that you're having an issue with the business area, or that you are a potentially underage member of the server. Its a hard line to take, buts its there because you can be reasonable, we can be reasonable, but one person who wants to cause trouble makes an account, joins and then finds it and reports, and the whole thing is ruined."

Like I understand there concerns but they could have just asked my to delete the post and the problem would have been solved. I am rather upset as I had no headup, no warning, and no contact afterward. I have been basically left to hang out to dry. Any tips to deal with this? I know this is a long post but thanks for reading its much appreciated.

[KierC]

Hey there,

Ah, I am so sorry this happened to you. So, it sounds like you were asking an earnest question about hypnosis, and they took it as a violation of their policies. (So strange, too, their comment about you potentially being underage, as you are 18. Do they have an older age requirement for the discord?). I can understand how upsetting this must feel for you, too, as it sounds like this community was a space where you could meet friends with similar interests, and the banning was really abrupt. I know online spaces can be really tricky with rules and guidelines in case of trolls, but I agree with you, ideally you would’ve been able to delete the post or learn more about their policies instead of them outright banning you without discussion or warning.

Do you have an idea of what form of support you’d like surrounding this? Are you looking to try to find different communities online, or want to talk about how it made you feel, or something else? Either way, we’re here for you. I’m so sorry that happened, how crummy.

[CuteKitten]

Basically the discord has an 18+ policy which I think is a good thing. I said in the post that I was stressed with A level mock results (These are exams people take in England when they are 17 or 18 so I guess there was a potential of me being underage.) The person I spoke to said "if someone decides to make an issue for the server, and they see an opportunity to report someone as under age in an 18+ server, then the server gets closed down, and then there's an appeals process and even with a win it won't ever be fixed really." I responded calmy saying that I was over the age of 18, I mean I could send a picture of my ID to prove it but I don't think it will change much . Also today the hypnotist blocked me for communicating on twitter they are all basically distancing themselves from me . Hypnosis is a very niche kink and there are not really many online communities out there, I mean there are ways you can get audios but not many spaces you can interact with people who are into it, and these places are on discord which I am banned from. I mean there is reddit but its not really the same if you know what I mean.

I would like to talk about how it made me feel. So imagine you have found an activity you really enjoy which you do as a pastime regularly. It doesn't impact on your work and actually makes you less stressed! That basically how I feel with hypnosis. Then all of a sudden its taken away from you and you might never get it back. I am not sure how long they have banned me for I asked but the person didn't know. I think it might be a permeant ban as I can't access discord not just the server. I am so upset as I asked to my eyes a rather innocent question in a section where you can ask these kind of questions and it has led to this. I haven't been at all aggressive and acted very calming when responding and offering ways to reduce any damage my post caused such as deleting my post in order to try and get let back in. However it seems they have a hard line approach to these things and it doesn't seem like any kind on negotiation's is going to help me in this situation. I feel like I have blown my only chance with this kink just want a second chance (not that I think that I did anything wrong that deserved me to get banned.) Yesterday I was very emotional which is not really like me and broke down crying I didn't tell my parents the reason Kier as you know from my other post. I don't know what to do an am quite lost. I also might be experiencing a sought of sub drop which might be making it worse. Do any of you have any tips on how I might communicate to be let back in?(I know you probably don't but I thought it was worth asking? Also any tips to deal with these emotions, it has effected me a lot and because I care about this I am really struggling. It weird as I really want to get back into the community but I really didn't like how they dealt with the situation and treated me. They could have involved me in the discussion and could have talked in out and reached a middle ground instead of going to a worse case scenario, I expected them to act like mature adults and maybe just maybe have a bit of emotional intelligence about how there actions could effect me.

[CaitlinEve]

It's weird to me that you can't access Discord as a whole in addition to the specific server. Have you been banned from servers or reported before? I don't think you blew your chance with the kink either! At the end of the day, even if it seems like you've been barred from it, this is only one space and only so many people who are part of this one space. There will always be more, you may just need to search to find them first. I think that you've made a great start to dealing with these emotions by talking them through here. Do you have any friends (online or 'irl') that you feel like you could talk about this with as well?

I also think that it's worth thinking about whether or not a community with people who would treat you like this is one that is worth being involved in. Do you think that if you did get back into this specific community that it would still be a safe space for you?

[CuteKitten]

No I have never been banned from discord before. Maybe I haven't blown my chance buts it a serious setback. I have kept my interest in this kink a secret as I know people will act a bit strange or might make fun of me, however I have spoken to a few true friends online which has helped a bit.

Basically in this community there are a few moderators. They decide the rules and how to proceed and basically everyone else follows suit. You raise a good point about if its worth to be involved in this kind of community but at the moment its this or nothing until I find another community. To a certain point the damage is done and I will never trust them again on the same level as there so called safe space is a whole load of bull. I think if they let me back in in the next week and apologized for overreacting I would feel ok being back in the community though I think that is unlikely to happen by the way its progressed and its already been half a week since I got banned.

[CaitlinEve]

Being banned from one discord shouldn't cause your whole discord to act up. I would maybe see if you can contact discord's customer support to make sure your entire account wasn't banned from the platform! What do you think your next steps will be with this situation? Are those true friends you mentioned also part of this community?

[CuteKitten]

Thanks that's a good idea!
I think my next steps in the situation will be to try and find a new community which your words have given me more motivation to try and pursue.
Most of these true friends are not part of the community but that might actually be a good thing as they helped me realise that these people are not really friends and didn't look out for me and did quite the opposite. I still have one person in the community who I trust but doesn't have really any influence in the decisions made but maybe they can help.
Thanks for responding I know most people wouldn't have spent this much of there spare time trying to help me deal with this problem.

[Sofi]

That's a great plan! There are hopefully other communities that will fit your needs and be inclusive - and if not, perhaps you could start your own