Frustration, dating
Posted: Fri Feb 06, 2015 2:05 pm
Hi!
This is not really a question more just me needing to went a little. So I recently started dating for the first time in my life (maybe I'm a little late to the game but it is what it is) and it feels very tumultuous but I really, really want a romantic relationship so I have to keep at it. I've been on a few dates with a few different people and they mostly been pretty embarrassing but I'm getting better and better at it I think. This one gal wanted to go on a second date so we did at the end of last week unfortunately it went pretty bad and it/I was soooo awkward and I was so embarrassed with myself so I pretty much ran home from this poor womans place and she was super sweet too so I'm pretty bummed about it. Anyways earlier this week I went with a friend to this kind of feminist group who talk gender and drink coffee and there was a super attractive (both personality and looks wise) woman there. I really wanted to ask her out so I asked my friend the next day is she knew her/ knew if she was single etc. She was but then my friend asks me why I didn't wanted to date her. I had no idea she wanted that but she is poly and already have two boyfriends and I'm not interested in being part of that kind of relationship and told her so. I also said I was up for a one time thing if she was interested. She wasn't and said I should know she don't do one night stands. I believe she was a little angry at me but she said she wasn't and that we are fine, so that's good.
But now I feel like I'm going to explode from sexual frustration and its getting worse every day, I do masturbate but it's not enough. I think I've always been sexually frustrated (it at least feels like I've always been) but now when I feel there is an actual possibility to meet someone who I wanna have a relationship with it's unbearable because it feels so close but I'm not quite there yet. I think my frustration is starting to show, which is not that attractive . Even tho that may be the case I still think I'm gonna ask the feminist gal if she want's to go out with me, I won't see her until next week so maybe asking her over facebook will be a good idea but that might be a bit desperate. Like I said not really a question just need to get this out.
This is not really a question more just me needing to went a little. So I recently started dating for the first time in my life (maybe I'm a little late to the game but it is what it is) and it feels very tumultuous but I really, really want a romantic relationship so I have to keep at it. I've been on a few dates with a few different people and they mostly been pretty embarrassing but I'm getting better and better at it I think. This one gal wanted to go on a second date so we did at the end of last week unfortunately it went pretty bad and it/I was soooo awkward and I was so embarrassed with myself so I pretty much ran home from this poor womans place and she was super sweet too so I'm pretty bummed about it. Anyways earlier this week I went with a friend to this kind of feminist group who talk gender and drink coffee and there was a super attractive (both personality and looks wise) woman there. I really wanted to ask her out so I asked my friend the next day is she knew her/ knew if she was single etc. She was but then my friend asks me why I didn't wanted to date her. I had no idea she wanted that but she is poly and already have two boyfriends and I'm not interested in being part of that kind of relationship and told her so. I also said I was up for a one time thing if she was interested. She wasn't and said I should know she don't do one night stands. I believe she was a little angry at me but she said she wasn't and that we are fine, so that's good.
But now I feel like I'm going to explode from sexual frustration and its getting worse every day, I do masturbate but it's not enough. I think I've always been sexually frustrated (it at least feels like I've always been) but now when I feel there is an actual possibility to meet someone who I wanna have a relationship with it's unbearable because it feels so close but I'm not quite there yet. I think my frustration is starting to show, which is not that attractive . Even tho that may be the case I still think I'm gonna ask the feminist gal if she want's to go out with me, I won't see her until next week so maybe asking her over facebook will be a good idea but that might be a bit desperate. Like I said not really a question just need to get this out.