how to feel more submissive when masturbating?

[princeandromeda]

hi, i hope i do this posting stuff right! at the time of posting, i'm 17 and identify as a trans guy.

i've always known i was probably gonna be on the more submissive side of things when it comes to sexual stuff, i just feel like letting someone else take control for once would be so gratifying to me. (in my life i'm usually very independent and alone, and i always kinda have to take charge. i also want to keep these two worlds separate yaknow?) but i didn't know how much i really wanted it until last night. i was sort of passively edging while scrolling through smutty textposts, fanfics, and audios and found one that was an interactive post. tl;dr it was a post that basically commanded you to edge and masturbate on your knees with your head down. orZ emote if you need a visual lol. but basically, i guess following the post flipped a switch in my brain because specifically doing that with the dominant tone made me feel so submissive and good, and it made me realize i want more of that in my sex life.

however, all advice for this kind of thing assumes you're in a d/s relationship with someone else, and it's all about being submissive to a specific person. i'm single and not looking atm. but it feels hard to really get in the sort of submissive feel by myself. it's hard because i'm not submitting to anyone, i guess i just want to feel like i'm generally not in control, or like some part of my mind is separately controlling the submissive part that comes out during masturbation and stuff.

even though i'm not a total newbie and i know what i like and dislike, i feel new to this whole idea because now i know the feeling i want, but not how to get it. i'm worried that last night was a fluke and i won't be able to replicate it, which would really suck. any advice is appreciated, i'm just glad there's a space to talk about this sort of stuff.

[amber]

Hi princeandromeda,

Glad you found the boards!

Fantasy is a huge portion of pleasure, and particularly, masturbation in general. Lots of people explore pleasure on their own while fantasying about a situation or dynamic that includes someone other than themself. It seems to me that the root of your question lies in self-exploration. Does that seem accurate?

Here is a article that you may find useful,
How to Approach Sexual Fantasy and Desire on Your Own Terms

It also sounds like you have already found ways to connect to that fantasy, through the textposts, audio, etc. Would you be able to seek out that stuff again?