Scarleteen

I have been having a lot of moments where I accidentally expose myself and my sexuality, and it makes me feel horrible and ashamed.

Recently had a situation where I opened my drawing app, and some drawings that were sexual in nature were still up, though he may not have exactly seen it because it was just my gallery; it still was visible. I hate this. I don't know if I should bring it up and apologize, but I also do not want to ever think about it again. I just uninstalled the app without caring if it got deleted cause I don't want to be reminded. It doesn't help that I'm trying to stay closeted...which I could not care less about if it was just some gay stuff, but the fact that it was sexual is just horrid, and I hope I didn't make him feel horrible as well.

What should I do? I feel weird. Do you guys also have any articles on how to deal with this?

Hi there, Ls2verice

To be honest, if I accidentally saw another person's erotic art in circumstances like yours, it would be something I could easily politely ignore, or acknowledge briefly without any judgement at all. I think it is quite possible that this person you mentioned would feel the same, because most people understand the distinction between someone trying to make them uncomfortable, and seeing indications that other people have sexual interests. The latter is a fact of life. You were not being inappropriately sexual towards him, this was just an accident where a sexual part of your life was brought up unexpectedly.

And that is if he noticed at all, which, as you said, he might not have. Did this person change the way he behaved towards you after this happened?

You could bring bring it up to apologize just in case, but I don't think you need to worry all that much about hurting him.