Idk I’m just venting I’m a wreck

[hellohelpp]

I don’t even know I Probaly have ocd or Probaly not I don’t even know because my older brother was in his boxers and I feel like I felt something for a second but I swear I didn’t i don’t even know I just wanna go back to how it use to be so badly and I told one of my friends so now I’m terrified of it getting spread and I just can’t anymore I was having such a good summer I have so much to do this year it was meant to be so good I kinda got over it but it came back so bad and it’s been so long I’m so depressed

[mikky]

hi hellohelpp,
I am really sorry to see how badly you are struggling right now. It's important for me to note that we aren't a mental health service, and based on your post, it seems like that is likely what you need right now. If you have a therapist or other mental health support in your life, this would be a time to ask for an urgent meeting. If you don't have mental health care, is that something you need help finding? Maybe 111 or Childline (https://www.childline.org.uk/) could be helpful?
I have struggled badly with OCD for most of my life and can understand how tough and distressing intrusive thoughts can be. You deserve to get care when you are feeling this scared and sad.

[hellohelpp]

idk if it’s intrusive ocd or something bevause like obviously I don’t wanna self diagnose like what if it’s just hormones idek it’s just so scary what if he found out or something. It’s like just not fair I’m going to an ari concert and then Disneyland later this year like why now it’s suppose to be good times. actually I don’t even know why I’m venting i could just go on one of those sites I’m just like I don’t even know thank you tho

[mikky]

Whether it is "hormones" or OCD or something else is secondary to the fact that you're experiencing quite a lot of distress right now. It sounds like you are feeling stuck, but mental health crisis lines and helplines are very good at listening to venting. There might be some chat based options available as well.

[hellohelpp]

are there sites like this wheee there’s like a chat board

[mikky]

Maybe you can try the chat line here: https://www.childline.org.uk/get-suppor ... llor-chat/
I don't know about other sites that offer forums like this, and can't vouch for any in this moment. We have one more volunteer coming in a few hours who may have a recommendation, but we will be closed tomorrow, so I highly suggest you seek out support now rather than wait for us as there might be a long delay.

[hellohelpp]

Thank you

[hellohelpp]

Wait I feel like I’m a little better now. Do u feel like the thought is so,etching I can just forget or should I talk to someone abt it idek

[mikky]

There's no need to ruminate on a specific thought and what it might mean or say about us- weird thoughts pop into our heads sometimes. But, if you are finding that you can't let it go, or you are continuing to feel depressed and anxious, I do encourage you to seek out some support.