Scarleteen

long story short
I CANNOT get lube, so please don't advise me to get lube, i really CANT with where I am, and i usually substitute with coconut oil or something.

I screwed up

I'm a teen
I couldn't get lube
I shoved a cucumber in vagina

And now I've burnt my skin from friction
It hurts so much

And since I can't tell anyone
I put unsalted butter on it for soothing
This could cause infections, but i don't know what to do.
When it drys up it hurts a lot I need something like butter
I know I can get infections from this but I really have no choice

It hurt while entry, i basically forced it in because I was desperate, felt good for a while when it went all the way inside but trying to pull out was difficult, it was stuck. As if my walls were latching onto the cucumber so I had to pull it out with force.

Basically on entry and exit I had so much friction going on that it burns, it HURTS, i can't sit without it hurting.

What do I do???

This doesn't happen when I use coconut oil but this time I ended up skipping it and now I'm suffering
(Burns on the inside of my vagina too, not just the entrance and inner lips)
HELP PLEASE