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Ok i love porn i love watching it i love writing it but i hate how male centered porn is so i go to female porn then i learn i hate how soft it is I just realized something that is making me extremely depressed WHY THE FUCK DO I HAVE TO MAKE ALL THE PORN I WANT TO WATCH. I don't want to do that and porn is all i can do To get off Literally look at my other posts its how i get turned on so i have to struggle and scrape for good stuff every single day I'd love to draw porn if i was good at drawing I'd love to write it(and im good at it) but i hate how nothing is this world is built for me like nothing zero! I hate being alive i hate having sex i never want to do this shit again. But its all i can do in an abusive home?? How come there are never any answers

Hi Shreklover!

I hear you about the feeling like nothing is 'perfect' when it comes to the content you are consuming. I will say that it kinda makes sense! We are all unique individuals with sexual interests and desires that are also unique. I think a big part of porn, no matter the format, is how it can be incorporated into your own fantasies rather than existing on its own. Does that make any sense?

I am sorry to hear that this is causing stress in relation to other areas of your life as well. I know you have come here before seeking advice on issues within your family and home life. Has anything changed since you were last here?

Nope cps showed uo once and never again im just gonna wait till i can leave, also iv decided on learning how to draw porn and writing it as well.

Hi Shreklover,

It sounds like you've already got some plans on creating sexual media that's exactly what you're looking for. I hope it goes well.

As for your family issues, have you been able to get any other external help besides DCF?