i don’t know if it was sa or not.
Posted: Sun Oct 04, 2026 6:44 pm
the first thing i can remember that made me feel uncomfortable was when she started to make sexual jokes (not always about me) and speak sexually towards me. she would joke around about a celebrity or a character from a show and say stuff like “oh shes hot” all the way to “she could eat me out”. that just made me really uncomfortable to hear. then she started to compliment me in weird ways. she had a thing for my ass i guess.
she would constantly point it out and even in the notes she wrote me my ass and my thighs were oddly big topics. she was a weirdly sexual speaking person for a 13 year old. she apparently had a dildo at her sisters house and liked to joke about that. she would often smack her friends asses or make explicit remarks towards them during school in the hallways. sometimes even walking with my hand in hers while she did this. i remember one time i was at a band concert and she told me “im going to molest your baritone” (my instrument) then i think i sent a picture of my dog and she said “im going to molest your dog”, when following this sequence she said she is going to molest me. it may have been a joke, but it didnt feel like one. i was scared. i was 13, and intimacy repulsed me. even kissing i didnt want a part of it.
when we were dating for a few months she started to try to get me to kiss her. one time she tried to kiss me without my consent on the bus. i told her i wasnt ready. for the next weeks she wouldnt let it go, it was almost daily that she asked me to kiss her. she said her friends that were in relationships were kissing, she thought why couldnt we. but i was not ready. eventually she had made me feel so guilty and as if i wasnt giving her enough, i kissed her. and it went downhill from here. i started hanging out at her house and she apparently wanted to cuddle, so she told me to lay down, and she laid on top of me. she didnt touch me innapropriately but she put her head right on my breasts and would occasionally slip her hands on accident i assume and she touched me either on my chest or stomach. this contined for months. i felt horrible i hated every second of being with her. i felt so guilty for not wanting it i felt like i wasnt enough for her if i didnt do it for her. one time we were texting and somehow we got to how she touches her friends, she said “i touch my friends boobs alot, dont be suprised if i just-“ then she grabbed her own boobs. i felt a little shocked that she would even speak to me like that. like she had a right to do that to me, as if she didnt even have to ask. she didnt do it, i broke up with her because i was so horrified of her actually doing something further to me.
i dont know if this was sa. we are just kids. maybe she didnt know what she was doing. thanks for reading this if you took the time to. i appreciate you.
she would constantly point it out and even in the notes she wrote me my ass and my thighs were oddly big topics. she was a weirdly sexual speaking person for a 13 year old. she apparently had a dildo at her sisters house and liked to joke about that. she would often smack her friends asses or make explicit remarks towards them during school in the hallways. sometimes even walking with my hand in hers while she did this. i remember one time i was at a band concert and she told me “im going to molest your baritone” (my instrument) then i think i sent a picture of my dog and she said “im going to molest your dog”, when following this sequence she said she is going to molest me. it may have been a joke, but it didnt feel like one. i was scared. i was 13, and intimacy repulsed me. even kissing i didnt want a part of it.
when we were dating for a few months she started to try to get me to kiss her. one time she tried to kiss me without my consent on the bus. i told her i wasnt ready. for the next weeks she wouldnt let it go, it was almost daily that she asked me to kiss her. she said her friends that were in relationships were kissing, she thought why couldnt we. but i was not ready. eventually she had made me feel so guilty and as if i wasnt giving her enough, i kissed her. and it went downhill from here. i started hanging out at her house and she apparently wanted to cuddle, so she told me to lay down, and she laid on top of me. she didnt touch me innapropriately but she put her head right on my breasts and would occasionally slip her hands on accident i assume and she touched me either on my chest or stomach. this contined for months. i felt horrible i hated every second of being with her. i felt so guilty for not wanting it i felt like i wasnt enough for her if i didnt do it for her. one time we were texting and somehow we got to how she touches her friends, she said “i touch my friends boobs alot, dont be suprised if i just-“ then she grabbed her own boobs. i felt a little shocked that she would even speak to me like that. like she had a right to do that to me, as if she didnt even have to ask. she didnt do it, i broke up with her because i was so horrified of her actually doing something further to me.
i dont know if this was sa. we are just kids. maybe she didnt know what she was doing. thanks for reading this if you took the time to. i appreciate you.
