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*FIRST TIME HAPPENING*
I'm 19. Virgin so far.
My boyfriend and I grinded naked. Without any clothes on. I was reluctant but he made me do it. The first time, he was on top and he rubbed his penis against my vagina. He came but he discarded the cum on the bed. He used the washroom. We did it again an hour later. This time too, he rubbed against me. Most of the while, he rubbed alongside my vagina and not in the centre. It was quite vigorous. He keeps assuring me that none of his fluid came in contact with me. And there was no penetration. But I'm not sure. I felt wet both times but was that because I came or was it his? There was no blood. And no actual pain. Both times, I washed my genitals. Does this make it worse? I read somewhere that this may propel the fluid, if any, further up. The first day of my last period was 23rd May 2016. This means that I shouldn't be ovulating until the second week of June. Does this reduce the risk? My periods are always more or less regular. Also, I know it sounds really stupid, but am I still a virgin? I don't feel anything different down there, just a little wet.
Is my hymen still intact?
Please I need help. I literally have no one else to talk to. I can't wait until my next period because it's too far away and the more I stress, the more it might get delayed. Please. I'm in hysterics here. I live in a very reserved place and my family would kill me if they found out any of this. Help. Please.

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In your question, you mentioned a few things that we can address, and I've made a thread to so here. We can talk about the hymen issue and your partner pressuring you there: http://www.scarleteen.com/bb/viewtopic.php?f=5&t=4348
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