Scarleteen

I am a 25 year old male.. i feel my whole life has been a lie i want to write this post as i feel I have been lying and driving my ego up the wall i feel . Having had intense feelings of sexual repression due to cultural conditioning i isolated myself numerous times. As someone who is a lightworker and extremely empathetic.. I was also an introvert and aloof as I felt i was different from other kids growing up. Can't explain the number of times shame isolation alienation has been a part of me, feelings of unworthiness and sexual shame and rejection due to lack of confidence in being myself has led me to gather various knowledge about myself and the world which is one of the positives i see. I have made some poor choices and I really want to let this blockage in my heart go. I have not physically hurt anyone. I do want to apologise to any woman i may have disrespected .. not accepting myself i feel has led me to never really accepting what was always in front of me or the present moment .. as my ego was too big.. also led to overanalyzing and bad thoughts. My intentions were always good and and I have come to learn a great deal of myself but i really need to let this blockage go as i know the life i want to live lies ahead of me this post is a step in the right direction for me.

Thank you for listening
peace be with us all