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What was it? Was I raped?

Posted: Fri May 11, 2018 5:17 pm
by BennyWilted
I jinxed it.

I had an excellent day at school today. I hung out with my friends Jay, Dawson, and Sam and we had a great time talking and joking around. I went to the park on my way home to meet up with my supplier, Ken, a 25 year old man. He was also my "friend." He greeted me with his usual sleazy "Hey, Pretty boy," and I awkwardly greeted him back. He pecked my cheek and put his arm around my waist, things he never did in sync. I was uncomfortable, but I needed what I needed. He led me into the bathrooms where he gave me my fix. I got my water bottle of rum and my 2 packs of cigarettes and baggie of weed. We went off to our bench and smoked. I drank my rum and got duked quick. I remember him being unusually touchy-feely, he just kept grabbing me kind of everywhere and calling me "hot"

He ended up walking me to his nearby home for some "reason." I remember everything from there. He took me to his bedroom and just kind of attacked me. His hands were everywhere and he was biting my neck. I was nude in a matter of minutes and he proceeded to take my virginity. He knew I wasn't biologically male, I don't know if he cared. I think he just wanted sex with some teenager. He also forced me to suck him off and it was awful and he was really rough. He seemed to think I wanted it. He eventually told me to get dressed and leave, to come back another time like nothing happened. I put my clothes back on and trudged back home.

I'm on birth control to stop periods and such, so I can't be pregnant. But I'm still processing this. What was it?

Re: What was it? Was I raped?

Posted: Sat May 12, 2018 6:22 am
by Heather
This isn't about you "jinxing" anything.

This is about someone who has, absolutely, sexually assaulted you. There's no mystery about what this was: it was an assault, clearly. It's also a fairly common scenario for sexual assault: dealers know how vulnerable and desperate people they sell to can get, so dealers sexually assaulting or otherwise exploiting those people is common.

I'm so sorry that this has happened to you; that this person assaulted you. How would you like me/us to help or support you from here?