Avoiding showering?
Posted: Fri Sep 28, 2018 11:41 am
OK-so this is one thing I do,I avoid showering for as much as I can.Reason? Terrible body dysphoria.I hate touching my boobs and vagina.I touch my genitalia every 3rd day,more less,when I masturbate,even then I feel disgusting.And it's always been like that.Even when I was a kid,I NEVER looked at my genitals while I was washing them (I did "by feeling" so I always washed them in detail).When my boobs started to grow,I would tried to flatten them with my hands, without even knowing why I was doing so.I just did it instinctively.My boobs stopped growing at about age 19.But by then they were already big.I tried showering with light off,but I could still see myself.And,ofc,feel myself.And I am VERY unhappy with the fact that I am so so so hairy.Like my whole stomach,my chest,my shoulders,even my back a little bit.I have more body hair then average cis man.I kid you not.I just hate my body.I just hate life.