Scarleteen

I am very bothered by not being cool enough. I wanna be awesome. I would be cool if mum didn't made me stop taking drugs [edited here]. I am not pretty cause my hair fell out. I am not strong and can't get into fights. I am smart but not enough. I feel as a loser.

Hi, I will ask you not to discuss drug-use here. It can put us in a really difficult situation legally.

With the feeling like a loser... you are absolutely not one but it makes sense you are struggling with mental health and low self esteem. It sounds like feeling ok about yourself is really tough from what you have said here and in other threads.

It sounds like seeking out some structured therapy could be really helpful.