Am I overthinking this?
Posted: Fri Apr 17, 2020 2:53 am
So to preface,
when the quarantine went into place, I met this guy on a dating app. I'll call him R. We've been talking a bunch, and I know that he likes me physically and mentally, and I feel the same way about him which is very nice.
We've been talking over Snapchat, and sending photos and stuff, and we're both of legal consenting age so it's all good there. On occasion we've video chatted and mutually masturbated together during this time.
The problem is that while he is able to get all the way to completion just from me, I struggle to stay aroused, and just usually end the video after he finishes then watch porn to reach the finish line myself. R says it's okay, but I feel bad for not being able to reciprocate his feelings towards me.
I don't understand why I can't maintain arousal during these chats, but when we send pictures I'm more than ready to go. This has in turn made me question if I'm addicted to pornography, and that I might be reading too much into our relationship that might actually just be a long term hook up, but my lack of experience with dating or relationships in general hasn't made me able to identify this.
when the quarantine went into place, I met this guy on a dating app. I'll call him R. We've been talking a bunch, and I know that he likes me physically and mentally, and I feel the same way about him which is very nice.
We've been talking over Snapchat, and sending photos and stuff, and we're both of legal consenting age so it's all good there. On occasion we've video chatted and mutually masturbated together during this time.
The problem is that while he is able to get all the way to completion just from me, I struggle to stay aroused, and just usually end the video after he finishes then watch porn to reach the finish line myself. R says it's okay, but I feel bad for not being able to reciprocate his feelings towards me.
I don't understand why I can't maintain arousal during these chats, but when we send pictures I'm more than ready to go. This has in turn made me question if I'm addicted to pornography, and that I might be reading too much into our relationship that might actually just be a long term hook up, but my lack of experience with dating or relationships in general hasn't made me able to identify this.