Scarleteen

A few months ago, I posted a "topic" where I basically screamed into the void about my frustrations of never having a girlfriend and the struggle of finding one. I didn't mean anything by it and only did it as a way to release 3 years worth of pent up frustrations in a way that wouldn't harm anyone. Since it was only on the internet, I thought no one would care.

I talked with my mother about this and she presented me with a Wikipedia article about the 2014 Isla Vista killings. When presented with the information, I immediately realized the actual weight of my actions, and felt like an idiot for doing so. Being on the spectrum, I am mostly out of touch with things like politics, including ones that could greatly influence a society's response to certain actions and behaviors. When I was sent a message by the website telling me my comment was taken down, I realized that I violated the user's agreement, but I didn't realize exactly how great the gravity of my comment was in the grand scheme of things and how similar it was to an event that actually happened 6 years ago.

That being said, I would like to humbly apologize to anyone I may have frightened with my rant. I now realize how much fear the aggressive words of a 21 year old male can create and will try to choose my words more carefully in the future. And I would also like to sincerely thank the people at Scarleteen for putting up with me and leaving me with just a slap on the wrist instead of kicking me off.

Seriously, I'm SO sorry. I know it seems weird but I swear to God, I didn't know

Hi woflcub,

Thank you for writing this!

I wish more people were able to read about that case and use it to question their own language, attitudes and behaviours.

I also think it's great you and your mom have a relationship where you were able to communicate about the situation here. Her giving you that article seems to have had a big impact and it's awesome that she understood that you would be able to relate to her underlying message.

It's not that special. She just has tons experience dealing with autistic offspring. She knew that I just needed a little context

Hey wolfcub,

Thank you for your apology and for reflecting on your words! That's much appreciated.