Today was one of those days. had my doctors apointment, told her everything other then rape. Did tell her is was unprotected so I got myself a mix of tests from her. This was my first gynecologist exam, it was no fun. heather, I did contact the sexual assault hotline out here. I did talk with the lo...

thanks guys, I know, not my fault. if all of this happened to a girl I knew I would be telling her the same thing. It was kinda easy typing it all out. I started with the one line and I just didn't stop. Before I knew it I was done. Now I just wonder what I should do with it. I did look for some adv...

I did see my rapist today. I found him at the store. I found his truck first before I walked in so I ended up just waiting across the street and watching him come out and drive away. He never did see me. it was strange just waiting for him to leave, like I was stuck in some place with no choice beca...

And, as I mentioned above, it would be sound to adjust the letter if you think certain details would lead to your dad reacting violently again. Welcome to my life sam. Maybe this is why I can not write it? I was punished enough for the little that he knew (none of it true) and now I plan on telling...

I do have a post directly above this one. I don't want anybody not reading it. Would you like me to help you draft the letter still? I can come up with a very basic frame for it that would let you use it for both your parents and anyone else you needed to tell. That may help make the process a litt...

Heather, I so love you! Can I say that, lol! You have been such a BIG help! And fyi, rapist was fired. He will not be at the party Saturday. Still not a fan of my dad after this punishment but I am happy with my rapist being fired. I just need to tell my dad the truth about all this :( I read this l...

I was in the line for the star wars movie with my friends. later on the guy who raped me arrived (i didn't know he would be showing up). I was told from my friends that my reaction when he gave me a hug was nothing but panic and fear (I don't remember this). My reaction made a couple guys stand betw...

he whipped me with a belt on my butt for a long time, that is what he did. Nothing else happened so I don't want you or anybody thinking something worse. It was very painful but I think it was more humiliating. 2 for 2! Not my fault, I know, that is what everybody on here says, I am just torn on wha...

my dad was right with what he did to me with the info he was given. And yea, it was abuse all over again but this time from somebody I love. I guess I had it coming since i can't tell them the damn truth! First I was raped, then I was beat to death. Yippie. heather, I am way ahead of you and thinkin...

the punishment is nothing I want to talk about. This board is sorta private but I can't talk about it. It wasn't fun, that says enough. never did contact my pastor, I think it would just be strange. Writing out a letter would be nice but I feel like every day that goes by just makes it worse. Nothin...

Heather, Just got done talking with my dad about this, if you can call it a talk. I lied about it all, just like I lied to my mom. He is not happy with me right now. I was thinking my dad would be mad at him more then me but I ended up taking the full punishment for it. I cried the whole time. I don...

I don't like my decision but I think it is right for me. I feel like I am protecting my dad by doing this and I feel like I am protecting myself from more harm. If I go the other route the cops will be called and I see both the guy who raped me + my dad going to jail. All that will happen after that...

it doesn't look like I can reply via pm anyway. Its okay, I was just looking for something more private other then a public board but nobody knows who I am anyway. I just wanted to say that my mom found out, I knew she would since some of my good friends know. I couldn't tell her the truth about wha...

sam if you want you can pm me also.

heather, could you please pm me.

Sam W, I do not mind. I read some of that link that you gave me. I can not see him like that as he is such a super nice guy, everybody loves him, but I know I am/was just some "thing" for him. Part of me wants to tell him how I feel and that we can't do that again but that we stay good fri...

I read what you said in your reply and I must say I agree. He ignored everything I told him, pushed every limit, I guess it was his way of thinking from the very first moment. You know he is a nice guy, or was. I dont know :| He works for my dad, him and about a dozen others. I interact with him and...

He is a good friend of my parents and I just ended up with him, can't explain why. I have known him for years and he is a good friend, I kinda think that he just lost himself that day. And I knew it was rape, I just didn't want to think of it like that. I just wish he didn't tell anybody about this!...

last couple weeks I have gone out with this nice guy. He is 22 so I have been keeping this relationship sorta a secret but my parents do know him. My friends know him also but it's this relationship thing that is/was a secret. We have kissed and done a little more but nothing that I would consider c...