I kinda understand all that. I don't know why I'm continuing to focus on this one-off, I can't seem to shift my focus away from it though. I can't seem to figure out what I need to do to self care my way outta this either. I get the whole nearly 30 thing, it's not something I'm proud of, being so na...

Hey Heather, I get the house thing and it totally makes sense. My radar is completely off at the moment for things, I didn't see the issue with drinking or going out or whatever at the time, I thought that getting out and doing stuff was the way to go. Obviously I was totally wrong on that front bec...

Hi Sam, Thanks I'll give it a read! Today I am continue to struggle with the emotion this has triggered. The total lack of understanding why it kept being pushed, even after I had said I wasn't ready. I know my red flag went off that night, I did put myself physically safe and just went home. That w...

Hi Heather, Thanks for the reply. Yes, It was just a one off thing at a bar. I didn't cut communications last night and yes your right, I should have done, not sure why I didn't really. I've done so now. It's the way it's all made me feel that is the worst part I think, which sounds strange given it...

I took the advise, told him I was happy to do go out and have fun with the group or even just the two of us as friends but wasn't looking for a hook up right now, nor anytime in the near future. He keeps on, wants me to send pics and videos etc etc. Wants to get together, wants to show me everything...

Hey, I've just got home. It's like midnight here and yes I've had a couple to drink but am still aware of myself! I decided to ditch the pub. Had a crappy situation where I did indeed have to explain my rational including being asked why I was acting as though I wasn't a women with boobs and a vagin...

Thank you for the reply! It's been a really lovely evening and I don't want to spoil things! Am happy just having a laugh with him, I don't want to have to ruin things by explaining about my assault. Tonight isn't about that. Tonight is just about getting myself back out into the world and meeting p...

Hi, Am out for the night with a bunch of people and I've been drinking and I've been chatting to this guy. Things are going ok, no in fact they are going really well. How do I tell him, in a polite way that I just can't go home with him? It's been offered but I'm just out to enjoy myself not to go r...

Hey Lenabean, Thanks for the response! :) Politically over here right now as you say, it's a difficult time and this is definitely NOT assisting anyone right now! On a political note ;) we have a couple things going on Twitter right now! To stamp out abuse and make people aware of what's going on! W...

Hi Sam, Yes. She is lovely and agrees that I need more time to sort things out in my head, the bad days are coming back more than the good days at the moment and although I am basically living my life app by app and trying hard with self care. I need to dig deeper into how I'm feeling etc. Rather th...

Hey, Went to rape crisis therapy today, opened up to her a whole bunch about what's happening inside my head at the moment, she has given me the name of a different therapist to see alongside her, someone who will be able to deal with my assault stuff as well as the other things happening in my life...

Hi, No I didn't ask if it was the same detective. To be honest that question didn't even cross my mind. It's the same police advocate person though who has been in contact with me. I am seeing the rape crisis team tomorrow and have been writing things down to remind me to mention (just so I make sur...

They said they would investigate it, the police women said she would contact me as soon as they have more info so that's all I can really hope for right now.
I have rape crisis therapy later this week so will give me a chance to off load what's going on in my head at the moment.

Get him out of my head rather than feet!

Hi, I spoke to Heather yesterday about emails and texts that I had been receiving. Following her advise, I went to our local station today and reported these, they said they would investigate them. They also reassured me that I wasn't wasting police time. In a odd way I was grateful that this mornin...

Hello Heather, Just looking for confirmation really! I used the book fresh system to make a reservation with you for today. I received a confirmation email for a different time/day. Just wondered if that was meant to confirm today's time or not as haven't received an email either way about today. Di...

Ok, so I am super pissed right now and this will probably start off major political but please bare with me! Sitting anywhere in this place right now when your not considered 'normal' is super sucky. I was in our local last night minding my own and all around me people were discussing Brexit. Lord h...

Hi,
I read this, this morning;

'All of the U.K. LGBT rights outside marriage are determined by the EU equality bill'

Now we are no longer in the EU what does this mean?

Some people aren't seen as equals already, just wondering if this is going to make it worse?!

Hey Sunshine! Thanks for getting in touch! I'm glad that my posts have been helpful to you! (I'm also sorry these have been helpful to you!) thank you for your kind words. I asked the above post because a couple of people I have spoken to now have said the word 'queer' isn't a good one Or even a nic...

Hi all, Today I had a conversation with someone about the guy I met. I was explaining that he identified as a queer guy. Following this the person I was talking to said 'they shouldn't do that, it's not a nice word. They should just be gay instead' I said 'why, he isn't gay, he's queer' Thinking tha...

Hi all, So today I went to the village fate and yes I did stand out, for a good reason though. I might still be the bi one with the weird hair and the newby BUT I'm also the one who stood up at the last minute because the sound system went wrong and sang a ton on Disney songs to keep people entertai...

Thanks. Yep, just doing all I can to get through the days :) Although it destabilised me for a while, I think I'm just going to put it down to one of those things and I suppose if it happens again, I'll have more of a view on what it is etc. As its a one off I've been thinking I'll just mark it down...

Hi Ashleah, Following a lot of tears this morning I blasted Pink's - just like fire. Realised my neighbour's were out so thought that would be the best time to do it, I've also attended our village fate today and generally tried to intergrate with other people. Although I was still very wary of who ...

This morning I woke up to an email and in the subject box was the nickname he used to call me. As far as I'm aware no one else knows this nickname as it's totally random and relates to a trip we went on together for work. This has spooked me a little, I didn't read the email and just deleted it. Yet...

I hope so, I don't want to be an outcast round here, just because of who I am and where I've come from. I just don't get why some people have so much of an issue with this stuff. I don't understand why my mum felt that kicking me out because of it was a good way to go or why she feels like she 'made...